topic What's enough in Depression

What's enough

Miss-Anne-Throwpy — Sat, 27 Jun 2015 22:58:51 GMT

I've just completely had it. Please let this be the bottom so I can start to go upwards. There's only pain or nothingness now.

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What's enough

white knight — Sun, 28 Jun 2015 04:43:29 GMT

Hi M.A.T, welcome again

Knowledge comes from education and life experiences, input from friends etc. Mental illness is a tough one because most of us have/are starting up our knowledge base from watching snippets on TV. In effect before we realised we had such illness, we were like most people- we knew zero.

About a year ago I read an up to date research paper that said while we are in a depressive cycle we should allow that cycle to go through its course before we expect it to go away.

So allow yourself to sleep or whatever you want to. Then when you pick up only then implement actions and ideas to stimulate yourself.

But clearly for me this process isnt fast enough and when in a depressive mood I try adding other ideas, physical exercise for one. Yeh, not easy but I wont let that black dog beat me.

Tony WK

What's enough

geoff — Sun, 28 Jun 2015 20:01:45 GMT

dear MAT, it's obvious that you finding life really stuff, andwhen depression has crabbed you around your ankles, won't let you go, has messed up everything that is physically and mentally not normally possible, but now has turned into reality, it has the capacity of crippling your whole life, and ruined our life, then we do understand, why, because it simply has/or still happened to us.

We look out the window and what do we see, the sun, a beautiful morning with the birds scurrying around the ground, fossicking for worms, cleaning and feeding their young chicks, no, even though they maybe it makes no difference, it never registers to us, because we really see nothing, just feel doom and gloom.

So to make any effort to get any help and/or treatment is furtherest from our mind, we don't have the strength to even consider this, and more so, we don't care, it's all too much and believe that no one could ever help us, and why would they ever want to do this anyway.

Well there are many people who want to lift you out of this drain, either professionals, family, friends or even counsellors who work for free, and then of course all of us on this site, and those that reply or including those that read your comment and perhaps don't know how to approach replying to you, but they are still there listening and hoping that all the answers can help them out of their own depression.

So how you feel and what is said to you back and forward does intrigue so many people, who really feel for you about how and why you are suffering from this terrible illness.

Please I hope that you can reply back to us, so that we can try and help you even more, but more so to know how any progress has/or if been made. L Geoff. x

What's enough

Miss-Anne-Throwpy — Mon, 29 Jun 2015 03:58:41 GMT

Thanks for replies.

Today is a new and strange day. I made it into work on time. Ran the gauntlet with the crowd anxiety but got in with time to take a breath. Got the day started without fuss or issue. Then a call to a meeting with management and HR and that was that. They were polite about it all but still terminated the job. I headed home feeling a bit of panic. But by the time I got through the commute I had calmed down and actually felt relieved. As much as unemployment is a terrifying prospect, I think I probably needed to be away from there to recover. Well, part time hours would've been option A but option B is what it is. I'm mostly stunned that, after initial panic, I've taken it so well. Still kind've scared but! Have a phone interview lined up tomorrow, so am not waiting around, I just know this time I need to be very discerning about the role I work in until I recover. It's a very strange day indeed.

Thanks again.