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Why do I feel so alone and sad all the time and yet I'm not?

Jodee49 — Tue, 17 Dec 2013 03:25:30 GMT

I have a wonderful husband and family, a secure job, no financial worries, a roof over my head, a warm bed to sleep in, an active social life, I take anti depressants and have done since 1996, and yet I feel so insecure and lonely if I'm not socialising every minute of every day.

I have a need to be busy - so that I don't overthink things and think depressing thoughts.

I am having surgery in three weeks which I have chosen to have to improve my health and have recently gone back onto diabetes medication (type 2) which really upset me as I feel I have let myself down.

Why do I beat myself up so much and let myself down time and time again. I'm intelligent, educated, motivated (at times) and yet feel sad and like crying and feel like I have no friends at times....

I've recently (6 mths ago) had my medication reviewed and have been on new meds which seemed to be working well......

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Why do I feel so alone and sad all the time and yet I'm not?

amamas — Wed, 18 Dec 2013 01:32:17 GMT

Hi Jodee

I'm glad the new meds are helping!

It must be confusing having your life appearing all together and yet feeling so empty inside!

Are you able to share with anyone about what's going on inside?

I find with myself I feel the most alone when I'm with people and it's because I don't feel safe sharing what's actually going on inside - that God for my psych!!

Take care Jodee, remember we hear you!

Cheers Amamas

Why do I feel so alone and sad all the time and yet I'm not?

Neil_1 — Wed, 18 Dec 2013 03:25:47 GMT

Hi Jodee

Thanx for posting and providing an insight into how you’re going.

Firstly, it is good that you’ve had your meds reviewed … because it was a loooooong time that you were on that one lot … I guess that would have been a tough time to change off one lot, have the washout effect and then commence on the new lot. Congratulations and well done for getting through that phase.

It is unfortunately the illness of depression that makes us beat ourselves up over things. But from what I’ve read in your post, you do have a lot of positives shining through; your opening sentence alone is testament to that. It’s also brilliant that you have a need to be busy, there’s nothing wrong with that either.

And good on you for taking on this surgery for to purpose to improve your health … you’re taking such a positive step by doing this as you know how important it is to look after yourself. But hey, don’t beat yourself up about having to go on the diabetes meds … you are not letting yourself down, you are taking charge to help yourself at this time.

That is another positive Jodee. I’ll also add here that it is courageous of your to opt to have the surgery, because not everyone is up for that kind of thing. I’ve had my share of operations throughout my life and I know what it’s like to be in hospital for a period of time. There’s also no shame in wanting to cry (or even getting to the stage where you do cry) … again I see it as a positive release.

Again thanx for posting and I hope that some of the response I’ve provided makes some sense for you. And please write back with anything else you’d like to add.

Cheers

Neil