my partner cops alot of my down times

butterfly2009 — Mon, 21 Apr 2014 10:11:19 GMT

Hi all, i am new to this forum but am feeling tonight like I really needed to get some answers or some insight as to how I have been feeling.... I dont know if its depression... or not.. or anxiety... or not...I guess I have a bit if a long story but... I just feel empty all the time, I feel like i am not good at anything I attempt and then I feel like a failure when I think i should try something else to see if I am better at that ( I am talking about my job here) I am 27 and have pretty much started a new job every 1.5 to 2 years changing careers or changing companies, It seems like when the pressure gets too much I look for something else. I am not a lazy worker by any means i am more of a perfectionist if anything and i put alot of pressure on myself... i always have in everything i do. I am currently working for a man whos way of working involves putting alot of pressure on me and expects overtime to be worked to pretty much keep your job (its very wrong I know) he likes to pick at things and put you on the spot, i feel nervous as soon as I hear him walk in the door and feel giddy in the head sometimes at work when I know he is there and my heart races. ..... I feel the answer is to get another job but then i feel like a failure, like i am giving up when the times get tough once again.... I have a partner who I have been with for 8 years. He says he supports me and wants me to get another job but then tonight when I was discussing how I was feeling down because I have to go to work tomorrow he snapped at me and said it was so annoying talking about this all the time, that all I talk about is my boss and that I should be positive. My partner works away and I dont see him for 4 weeks at a time so we only talk on the phone... as soon as the conversation was over i burst into tears and cried for about 30mins... I just feel really unsupported i think.

.... i lost my mum 5 years ago to breast cancer and I dont have her to speak to about alot of things i guess which makes venting harder.. my partner cops alot of my down times.... on top of all the work stress I am constantly thinking i am going to get breast cancer and cant get it out of my head.

I dont have feelings of suicide or anything but I just feel like... I am .... useless... worthless... and now... annoying. I feel like ok, I cant talk to my partner about feeling down anymore because its annoying him... i dont know what else I have to talk about..... I dont know what makes me happy besides my dog... I know I have family and friends but its hard to see past the things that get me down most of the time.

As I mentioned earlier my partner works away and you would think I would jump all over him the second I see him but I have lost interest in being intimate and am tired most of the time... I spent most of my long weekend lying on the lounge in and out of naps....

I dont know maybe I am just in a rut.... but I just wanted to see if anyone else can relate to this or if I am just being dramatic.

I am feeling a little lost now I dont feel I can talk to my partner... Sorry for this very LONG post but i needed to get this out.

Hope someone can help!

my partner cops alot of my down times

Catlady — Tue, 22 Apr 2014 08:08:56 GMT

Sounds like you're experiencing depression. Try and get to your GP or another health professional though so you're able to get a proper diagnosis. I can totally relate because I was diagnosed a few years ago with depression and generalised anxiety disorder. Maybe connect with some services who can help you? I just finished an online course with Mindspot clinic online and reckon it's a great service. There are lots of resources out there. Google mindspot clinic and go through their assessment/treatment course if you find it helpful. It's free ! Good luck.

my partner cops alot of my down times

AmberMolly — Wed, 04 Jun 2014 09:40:16 GMT

Hi butterfly, I don't know if your on here anymore but I can relate to nearly everything you have posted. It is my first time on here and I was lost as to where to start and what to write, I too would have a massive intro if I started to type. I will wait and see you you reply. 🙂

my partner cops alot of my down times

Struggler — Wed, 04 Jun 2014 10:50:58 GMT

Hi Butterfly2009

Not sure if you'll be back here. If you are still here I'll add some of my experience.

Struggler

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my partner cops alot of my down times