topic Someone to talk too in Depression

Someone to talk too

Chris D — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 06:37:10 GMT

I need to talk to someone. I need encouragement. Please help me.

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Jo3 — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 08:21:36 GMT

Hi Chris,

Please post back and give some information as to what is troubling you. We are all here for you to help you get through this difficult time.

Well done though for making the first step on here seeking help.

I hope you get back to us

Take care

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Stephen123 — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 08:25:54 GMT

Hi chris first of all well done for making the first step. You may not realise it now but I promise you one day you will. You have made the first step to recovery. You have realised there is a problem. Now you have 2 options you can go on seeking help and trust me there is an awful lot of help out there these days. Or option 2 and this is the bad option you just ignore your realisation and carry on the way you normally do. What I would suggest you do is take a pen and paper go somewhere where you won,t be disturbed and just start writing. Doesn,t matter what you write just get it down and let out all those worries. When you feel you,ve written enough you now have to make another decision. You can just burn what you have written. I would not advise this what I would advise is you call beyond blue or any other help line and read out what you have written or look up a beyond blue recommended gp in your area and if you think you can,t tell the gp what the problem is then just show them what you have written. Remember ly you have already made the first step to recovery you must now take the next step and so on. If there is a problem you have the opportunity of nipping it in the bud. You could just search for a beyond blue recommended psychologist in your area. Medicare will fund the first nine visits. Ly I have been hospitalised with major depression on 4 separate occasions over a twenty year period. I have received a lot of therapy and I needed if minute of it. I would not be here if it wasn't,t for good psychiatrist and psychologist. I wish you well ly good luck and try and post again.

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Chris D — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 09:37:02 GMT

Hi Jo,

Thankyou for replying to my post. I am not in a very gd head space at the moment, on a scale of 1 - 10 where 1 is sucidal and 10 is over the moon i'm about a 2 probably 1. Please I need somone to answer this post straight away.

Thankyou

Chris

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Chris D — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 10:52:22 GMT

I have linked in with so many health professionals and groups, but their not helping not even my own family are supporting me. I thought some of my friends would but their not. They say i can come to them and when i do they turn me away. I'm definately not getting the support I need or expected from anyone.

So far down a dark and stone cold hole that i can't get out off, falling deeper with every passing second.

I'M A LOST CAUSE.

Well done to the so called help friends, family and professionals thanks to you there is going to be one less person in the world most likely within this coming week.

Well at least i won't hav to put up with anyone else's B.S. anymore.

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vierared — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 14:03:17 GMT

I need someone to talk to as well, maybe we can help each other out?

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geoff — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 14:18:26 GMT

dear Chris, when we have depression we always think that 'we're a lost cause', because there is nothing, absolutely bugger all to even bring a spark to our mind.

All our 'friends' or what we used to know them as, aren't interested in discussing our problems, why should they they just want fun, excitement and what ever turns them on, so this just leaves ourselves to suffer alone.

Chris jump on board, it's the same as what we all have been through, so we know how you are feeling.

At least on this site you won't have anyone turning away from you, nor will anyone criticise or mock you, so it's a safe place to be. Geoff.

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Chris D — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 21:46:33 GMT

Had enough of life, not going to live anymore just keep getting doors slammed shut in my face everytime i try and get help. Don't even know why i bother. This is the first and last time i'm going to get professional help. Should just do it alone like i have done many yrs in the past. I knew i wouldn't get the help i needed now this just confirms it.

Have lost faith, trust and confidence in everyone and everything.

Going to do what i should have done many yrs ago, definately regretting it now.

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geoff — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 22:36:09 GMT

dear Chris, this is frightening stuff, and you are in a deep black hole and have been for a long time.

Too much rejection from so many people either professional or not, really closes the door to open up to those that are concerned about you, and this is no crap what I am saying to you, I and others want to help you so much, so what I am asking you is to please contact us again, and there is no worry on this site as to what you tell us.

We don't know who you are or what you look like, so there is no way you can be identified, so please we care for you and we understand that life can be hell, and that's what it is at the moment for you. Geoff.

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Chris D — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 23:14:51 GMT

What i'm going through hell isn't even in the same ball park doesn't even come close. I'm so far down i've gone straight through hell without stopping.

There are no words to describe where i am or where i'm going. Falling deepper with every passing second hav given up on life and everything.

Forget it.

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beyondblue_Online_Communi — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 23:18:51 GMT

Hi Chris, You really are at a serious point in your thoughts and thinking. We understand that you have had some professional help before. It's time now to contact the professional again for some extra support. Sometimes it takes time for the treatment to work but with the right treatment and support team you can get better. Please remember that suicidal thoughts are part of being depressed and that when you have the right treatment these thoughts will go away. Please contact beyond blue helpline for extra support. The no is 1300 22 4636. We are all here to support you. Please let us know that you have called someone for some help today. We are very worried about you. Beyondblue Team

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hamishandme — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 23:30:53 GMT

Dear dear dear chris d, hi I'm another person here who has been where you are several times and trust me though it may seem like the only choice to you, it really is not! It is NEVER ever the right choice, despite what we convince ourselves at the time. which seems to be where you are now, would you agree? The thing is, our brains are so exhausted and stressed from our illness which is depression, that our brains create these horrible thoughts and we convince ourselves that its okay to have these ideas.

Its not you, dear sweet Chris, it's the illness, giving you these illogical thoughts. It is the illness. When we have depression, our brains are lacking in certain chemicals and cannot function properly. We cannot think straight, and our brains start having all these illogical thoughts telling us we are worthless etc. which simply aren't true!!!! Ever!!!!!

You were meant to be on this earth, you are meant to stay here for a very long time. You know deep down you are a kind, caring, loving person, and trust me the world needs you. People like you and all of us here are the most precious because of our gift of sensitivity.

Im not just saying this, these are facts, they're just too much for your stressed brain to cope with at the moment. It will get better, impossible to imagine right now I know, but all of us here are living proof and we are your friends. So please please please pick up the phone now and call the Beyond Blue emergency number - or Lifeline - and tell the person on the other end exactly what you've told us.

Are you feeling too stressed to get the numbers? Do you want me to message them back to you ? Please tell me ASAP

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hamishandme — Sat, 23 Nov 2013 23:41:53 GMT

PS here it is anyway as the moderator posted above

1 300 22 4636

xxxxxxx

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Chris D — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 01:17:31 GMT

Never ever going to be happy again, everytime I am happy bad things always happen so there is no sense in being happy.

Seriously considering things, numerous places and plans in place in my head.

There is no hope for me and there never ever was.

I was put on earth to have short and meaningless life not a long and meaningful one. I'm so far past below hell i don't even know where i am.

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Jo3 — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 02:36:09 GMT

Chris,

If I could just reach out to you I would. Please call the phone number given. We all care about you. If you just call them and tell them how you are feeling, they will help you.

The depression is making you think like this, it is NOT YOU. You have a life, a long life to live.

Everyone here is thinking of you, please seek help. Just one phone call and you will be supported.

Thinking of you

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hamishandme — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 02:43:31 GMT

Chris D, glad to see you have posted again, however I am really worried about you. Have you rung the 1 300 22 4636 number yet? Please do.

Nothing is meant to be as painful as this. It's not a sign that you're hopeless, quite the opposite - your brain is sending you these messages as a cry for help, because your brain knows you are clever enough to seek help and sort it out.

So stop entertaining these plans - it's your stressed-out brain, it's not YOU. You are probably so stressed right now that you can't even remember what the real you is like, that's what it was like for me when I've been feeling like that. Depression is really powerful, it can convince us of absolutely anything - Chris, it is the depression it IS NOT YOU. Speaking from experience!!!

Where are you? Are you in a safe place? Are you with other people? If you are alone and scared I strongly recommend getting yourself to a hospital and telling them what is wrong. Just sit there and wait, sleep, doze, whatever until they can help you. Do not take no for an answer and do not pretend that everything is fine when it clearly is not.

We have a good health care system and you are entitled to everything you need. Ring Beyond Blue, get to a big hospital, tell someone you trust. Ring a doctor, or Lifeline. Do all of the above - do whatever it takes! PLEASE

No one was ever meant to suffer this way. You are not meant to suffer like this. You need to speak to a professional NOW. Don't let it go on any longer - ring the number and please get back to me to tell me you did.

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Chris D — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 02:57:48 GMT

Dear hamishandme,

I'm like this because the whole health system is not gd, that is why i have no confidence or faith or trust in anyone or any service.

The lack of help that i have recieved from the mental health service and the whole health system is really shameful. I even got told that the system is not in gd shape.

The most fustrating thing is they tell me i can talk to them and when i do they tell me to go away where not that kind of service. It has only been 3mnths since i was diagnosed with depression and already hav lost faith, trust and confidence in the system. This is why i'm going to go through this alone like i have done so many times and for so many yrs before hand.

I'M A LOST CAUSE.

Chris

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Jo3 — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 03:02:38 GMT

Chris,

You are NOT a lost cause. You are suffering depression and when you have this illness you need help. You need help and help now. Please give someone a chance to help you. You deserve it.

You know there are so many people (including me) that have suffered depression for many years and yes it's a hard road but believe me you can get through this. and you will get through this.

So please please please give that number a call.

There are so many people on here thinking of you and worried about you.,

Jo xx

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Mares73 — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 03:20:06 GMT

Chris you sound seriously suicidal. I beg you to phone beyond blue or to write down all your you are feeling so we can all support you. So many of us understand what it's like to reach a point where the pain consumes you. But it is the pain you want to destroy-not yourself. I appreciate when you are this low that it is difficult to reach out and you are consumed by wanting to make the bad feelings go away. When you reach the point you are at, it is SO important to do something to help yourself stop hurting. If you don't feel you can talk to someone on the phone, call an ambulance and just say you need help. If you can't do that-have you got anyone who can phone for you? You could even phone beyond blue and they may be able to get you help immediately. Please hold on, destroying yourself is not the answer. Getting help today will give you the support to get through this difficult time. Whenever I've felt desperate I've told myself its the pain of the illness I want to end-not my entire life. Please do something right away-either phone beyond blue or phone an ambulance. And please let us all know what you decide as a lot of us are worried about you and want to support you however we can. Please respond as soon as you can. You are in my thoughts, M

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Chris D — Sun, 24 Nov 2013 07:15:00 GMT

Dear Everyone,

There are no words to describe just how much i appreciate all of your support today you are all helping but things are still extremely hard and difficult.

I just finished an online counselling session with the suicide call back service which went for an hr.

I wish i could meet up with you all and c u all in person and say thankyou from the bottom of my heart to your faces.

Kind Regards

Chris

Will post later on to keep you all updated.