topic bad day nightmares in Depression

bad day nightmares

cazza — Fri, 21 Jun 2013 14:55:28 GMT

well me not have a good day too afraid to sleep god I have these night mares where I sometime wake up screaming and crying so depressed I don't want to get out of bed and then I don't want to get back in life just one roller coaster one big one up and down most time I don't want to leave the house when I go shopping some days just drive back home to many people feel a lot safer if I stay home like if I go I have to check all doors and windows I even turn all power points off I case there is a fire but lately I have to check them more and more thing have 2 b in strait lines I hate things being out of place just don't know why cant stop this house is the only place that has ever made me feel safe not sure I deserve to get better or if I even want to after losing my job and that big pay check I think that why my ex left as well he didn't like responsibility

bad day nightmares

The_Real_David_Charles — Sat, 22 Jun 2013 05:31:35 GMT

Dear Cazza,

Can't help noticing you've posted a couple of times in the last 24 hrs. If your moods are escalating like this or you are feeling unsafe maybe you should go to the Emergency Unit of a Pyschiatric Hospital and get checked up.

A bit of OCD with lock checking, anxiety with inability to sleep, and your sheer anger in the other post I responded too point to a need for treatment. Stress is there for a reason - to tell you something is wrong. Your ability to pick up on this and seek help (other than posting on BB) is key to your recovery. Unfortunately you are making things so much harder for yourself by staying at home while your mind shreds itself.

Sorry, but I just sense the escalation could be leading to self harm and you seem a great character with tons of energy and much to offer. If it doesn't work out at the psych hospital you can Head Butt the nearest lamp post when you come out.

Insight will keep you safe. Losing a big pay check / job is a huge trigger for anxiety and suicide. The firepoints you are checking - that's because you have a fire in your head. But controlling the things in straight lines isn't going to control your mind in the long term. Even parallel lines meet at the horizon.

Adios, David (yep, boring old fart, over 50)

bad day nightmares

S_A_D_ — Sun, 30 Jun 2013 13:42:50 GMT

I agree with David.