topic It's Monday morning in Anxiety

It's Monday morning

Stormgrl101 — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 00:39:18 GMT

And I'm not even out of bed yet and am panicking and anxious about the day ahead and don't know where to start or what to do. Why does life feel so pointless. I don't know how much more I can take!!!

hope you all are well

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white knight — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 07:36:38 GMT

Hi Annebear,

Some people need an adrenalin rush to make life exciting. That's why some people ride motorcycles, fly gliders or water ski.

Some can bake a cake and feel fulfilled. Do some gardening and look at its new appearance and they are happy.

Being bored with life can be a symptom of depression. You havent mentioned if you have any such diagnosis.

If you have continuing syptoms then your GP is the first step.

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Iwillsurvive — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 07:53:04 GMT

Try not to think too far ahead. One step at a time. Slowly get through each of your daily tasks and see if your mood changes. I hope your day improved from here.

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Stormgrl101 — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 08:32:11 GMT

Hello white knight, thanks for your reply. I have struggling with anxiety and depression for ages (runs in my family) I take medication and see a psychologist monthly but everyday feels like such a struggle. I have no real purpose or direction, am unemployed and anxiety has taken over me. I wish I could just go to sleep and not wake up...

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dougall — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 08:43:26 GMT

Hi life has a point it is whether we get it or not. I find that when I wake up I lay in bed till I hear the birds sing then I know it is time to get up. If the birds can be cheerful and sing first thing in the morning then I can get up and shower. It is hard, maybe if the night before you decide to do something when you get up so you have something to look forward to. It is hard and it does take a lot of effort, it also gets easier the more you do it.

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HA1 — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 12:41:45 GMT

Hello Annabear

I understand how you feel. it can be hard to get sufficiently motivated to get out of bed. Many here have gone through this feeling.

To avoid this feeling, my morning 'routine' has become one of waking at 4am and quickly get out of bed (without giving it a second thought). I put on a pot of coffee, and then go and sit outside (garden or balcony) and wait for the morning sounds to come alive and the sun to rise. It is quiet everywhere so I have my 'space'. It is in fact very nice at this time of morning. I have a little something to eat and then, once the morning has broken, I go back to bed for a little while. Then I get up again and after more coffee, I start on my to-do list. It works! At one stage I could hardly get out of bed at all.

Try and experiment with your routine to see what works for you - everyone is different.

good luck

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Stormgrl101 — Mon, 27 Oct 2014 22:58:47 GMT

Thanks for the replies, I don't feel quite so alone. I definitely need to work on a morning routine , I can't keep going on like this. My psychologist has suggested doing some volunteer work with animals to get me out of the house but even that makes me anxious. I need to get a job so I can support myself plus I don't want to be on centrelink anymore but the thought of working sends me into panic mode. I know it's baby steps I gotta take but even they feel too much 😞 I just want to feel better and not like a failure.

im so glad I came on BB.

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HA1 — Tue, 28 Oct 2014 01:44:48 GMT

Hi Annebear

You are not a failure! It is not you, it is your illness making you feel like this. You will get better.

just keep taking those baby steps, no matter how small, and even if it is for only a short while every day. And, volunteer work would be good, I am looking at doing it also.

Take care

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dougall — Tue, 28 Oct 2014 03:07:47 GMT

Hi well one thing you got wrong, you are not a failure and never will be. I am also on centrelink payments and I have no idea how people survive who drive or smoke, I do neither and I just manage. If you get anxious about going out to meet new people what about caring for orphaned animals and they can bring them to you. It will give you something to focus on and bring a smile to your face. I have found the animals are not judgemental and we are our worst enemy because we focus on what is wrong with us and not what it right. Changing the topic have to keep using spell check as I am spelling words in English and it keeps wanting to change it to American so it makes it look as if I can't spell, ha ha.

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Nickname_A8EB1F97-51CC-45 — Tue, 28 Oct 2014 03:28:36 GMT

Hi Anne, I know that feeling! I am on a few days break from work because of it. I have found that routine helps enormously if i can manage to water my plants and brush my teeth then maybe i can manage putting on clothes and leaving the house 🙂

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Stormgrl101 — Tue, 28 Oct 2014 06:49:32 GMT

Hi all

still not feeling the best but am a bit more encouraged so thankyou lovely people for your replies. Still waiting to hear back about the volunteer work. Fingers crossed it will be ok.

I wish this foggy head would go away. I'd like to think clearly for once. Blehh

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dougall — Wed, 29 Oct 2014 22:40:39 GMT

Hi how did you go with the volunteer work?

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Stormgrl101 — Thu, 30 Oct 2014 01:49:32 GMT

Hello dougall

thanks for asking. Unfortunately I have not heard anything back yet which is causing a lot of anxiety for me as I don't know what to do next.

Hope you are having a good day

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dougall — Thu, 30 Oct 2014 02:02:25 GMT

Hi Annebear, I applied for volunteer work a couple of weeks ago, they contacted me then I had to fill out paperwork and a police clearance form which will take 10 days they say. It might be the paperwork that is taking the time to process and nothing to do with you so good luck. I am expecting it to take near a month not 10 days I know how government places are, used to work in one. Hope you day is going really good, I'm doing the washing at the moment so have time inbetween cycles to chat to my friends.

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dougall — Sat, 01 Nov 2014 21:02:34 GMT

Hi Annebear, how is your day going, well I hope.

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Stormgrl101 — Sun, 02 Nov 2014 12:06:27 GMT

Hey dougall

I am doing okay today. Just taking it step by step. How are you?

Been feeling a bit trapped in my own mind lately. Makes it hard to keep conversation going with family and housemates.

I wish I could get my own place, a lovely little house with large garden near a secluded beach or forest would be nice. A place where I am free to be me. No anxiety or worries just me and my animals ... ah I can only wish.

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dougall — Sun, 02 Nov 2014 20:37:56 GMT

Hi Annebear lovely to hear from you. I had half my dream home, it was 5 acres around 7kilometres from town. I had dogs, cats, birds, rabbits and anxiety. I do not drive to relied on my ex husband to take me everywhere plus the anxiety made it hard for me to go through a checkout, cheap way to live ha ha. It was my undoing, I thought the further away I am from people the less stressed and anxious I would be. I was cut off from everything, I relied far too much on my ex and my son for company, when they were not there I gardened and looked after the animals but I always knew they would be back in the evening. Well other things played a part and my dream was shattered. We tried for 5 years to get a loan to build on the property with no luck, circumstances with work or changes in the banks way they did things. It put a lot of pressure on my relationship and with the anxiety on top, the enevitable happened, relationship fell apart, property sold, animals given away. I have no regrets I got to live my dream for 5 years so I was so lucky. I now have another dream and that is to own my own house and understand my anxiety. I would love to meet someone I could relate to but that is something that will happen if it is going to. What I am trying to say is sometimes a dream is wonderful but it does not always turn out the way you want. There are places that are just out of towns that are secluded yet close enough to town if you are in trouble. I am in the center of town now, big shock to the system but I know my anxiety has improved slightly as far as the check out is concerned because if I don't go shopping my son and I will not eat. I have not managed the dress shops yet or shoe shops, getting there. You will be in your own place with your animals and be free to be whoever you want to be.

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Stormgrl101 — Mon, 03 Nov 2014 00:37:33 GMT

Hi dougall

how is your day going ? Good to hear your anxiety is improving slightly. Going to shops is a big one for me too. I often avoid going as much as possible. I try to use self serve checkouts as much as possible so I don't have to talk to anyone.

Today is testing me a bit. My grandpa asked me to go to this place and pick up some food for them. I haven't been there before and the anxiety is here in full swing. Trying to take some deep breaths and just go.

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dougall — Mon, 03 Nov 2014 00:56:50 GMT

Hi Annebear I have just manged to go down the the craft shop I have my things in and got a nice surprise, some of my crafts have sold so I was very pleased. It has taken me a week to go down and see if anything had sold. The thing is they give you the money by cheque so you have to go into a bank. I have had my things in the shop for the past 4 months so the money I have made has paid for the shelf price and whatever is left I just leave there. They are quite understanding and if I want the cash they can give it to me, I just can't bring myself to ask for it. What kind of place do you have to go to? Can you ring them to have the things ready so you can just pick them up, pay for them over the phone?

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Stormgrl101 — Mon, 03 Nov 2014 08:29:27 GMT

Hey dougall

wow that's great! What type of craft do you do? today went ok after all. Then my housemate said they having two visitors over tonight. I don't know what time they are coming. I wish I wouldn't get so anxious when someone comes to visit. I just can't control it.