anxiety is coming back and i feel worse

hope_29 — Thu, 05 Jun 2014 01:21:17 GMT

I posted a couple of days ago about how I've been feeling now that I have started a new job and find myself checking everyday for a reply it's like im desperate or something. I actually left my last job because it was horrible hours and stress. I guess I'm worried that I'm going to feel miserable at my new job. I have this fear that Im not going to do well even though I've worked for this company before and they were happy to have me back. It's like I feel I will let them down some way. I think my self-confidence is at a bit of a low. The role is more responsibility this time but I need the money atm.

I know it all prob sounds normal but Ive battled for the last few years a long journey in depression and anxiety and was seeing a counselor about it (this was for other reasons but work was something we did talk about towards my last few sessions). I don't think Im depressed anymore but anxiety has been a battle. I haven't seen her in a few months now but I don't know if thats stopping me booking with her again. I guess I feel I had to come here just to let out what it is I'm feeling when I wake up for work or on a sat night when I know I have to go to work on a sunday. I wake up with knots in my stomach, my heart flutters, my hands feel really shakey and my lip twitches a bit too. I'm paranoid this will show at work sometimes when I feel nervous.

Is this because I'm thinking too much? I know its ok to feel nervous at a new job but sometimes I just over think everything and hype myself up way too much just for one day and it drives me crazy.

Whats strange is that Im actually a very positive person (well so everyone says)... even at work Im known to smile a lot but I wish I actually felt what I project myself.

Please if anyone could give me some advice that would be amazing!

anxiety is coming back and i feel worse

Struggler — Fri, 06 Jun 2014 14:37:34 GMT

Hi Hope

Yes I can relate to anxiety very well. Many years ago I started this new job and I wanted so much to succeed. I was still on medication for depression and anxiety. In fact I was not ready to take on a new job. I actually had internal tremors and felt nauseous. I thought it was normal. Looking back it was not. I tried to manage the best I could but I made many mistakes on the new job and missed out on new project.

Have you thought about seeing your GP? Maybe you are seeing your previous counsellor already? Love to hear back from you.

Struggler.

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anxiety is coming back and i feel worse

anxiety is coming back and i feel worse