topic I’m Lonely And Need A Friend in Anxiety

My Ongoing Fear

Mario_Sonic — Fri, 17 Oct 2025 04:30:44 GMT

Hey guys, Liam here. I just wanted to talk about something that has deeply affected me for a long time now and that something...is my fear of losing my family...Basically, from when I was born to when I was 13, I was a youthful, happy person...but when I was 14, so this was in September 2019, my Nan had a fall and broke her arm. This was something I didn't see, but I was there when it happened...I had my two cousins with me at the time, boy and girl and my girl cousin actually witnessed Nan fall which deeply traumatized her...anyways...point is, after this incident, in 2020, I lost my Grandpa and my Nan's best friend five months apart from each other so in the months of July and Februrary...then in 2021, as a couple of you may know, my dear friend was murdered in September of that year...these three deaths all mean something to me because they've given me this belief that I'm going to lose my family and if I do lose them, the only option I'll have left is to end my life because I can't live without my family...especially my Nan and Pop...they're not just a part of my life, they are my life and they're a part of me...I love my Nan and Pop and all the rest of my family dearly...my fear has gotten so bad that I've started having nightmares about losing them all, seeing them all dead, me being beaten up by my enemies, and me being killed in an electric chair ever since Nan's fall...I guess that's why I feel like I need a girl I can talk to so I'll never be alone... *Crying* 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

-Liam

Re: My Ongoing Fear

OldHeadNZ — Fri, 17 Oct 2025 10:40:08 GMT

I'm happy to talk to you bro.

Where you from?

Re: My Ongoing Fear

Mario_Sonic — Sun, 19 Oct 2025 12:01:02 GMT

Actually, forget I said that, I don't feel comfortable sharing exactly where I live. I'll just say I'm from Adelaide

I’m Lonely And Need A Friend

Mario_Sonic — Sun, 26 Oct 2025 23:14:53 GMT

Hey guys. It’s me, Liam. Alright, let me just begin with the fact that yes I am still feeling depressed about not having a girl mate, yes I am still lonely, and yes, I have posted about this already. I just don’t know what more I can do…as someone who’s now living in the country area, there’s not many people who are my age…and there’s not many groups I can go to…the main reason I’m posting it here in Depression is because I’m currently just feeling down in general…I’m feeling kind of emotional too…last night I just broke down crying and I don’t know why…I reckon I’m suffering from emotional breakdowns because last year, I had two severe breakdowns both in August…I don’t know what more I can do… *Crying* 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

Liam

Re: My Ongoing Fear

sbella02 — Wed, 29 Oct 2025 06:06:38 GMT

Liam/Mario_Sonic,

Thank you so much for sharing this here, welcome to the forums. Oh goodness, I can only imagine how devastating this has been for you to go through. On top of it all, to be having nightmares as well, those constant reminders must be taking a significant toll on your mental health.

Off the bat, it's good to cry. When your body feels like it needs that release, it's important to listen to that instinct. It's how we can process grief and things that are upsetting. Some other things you may find useful to do may be to journal about how you're feeling, express yourself in a creative sense, exercise, take a brief walk out in nature, or even do something like write letters to loved ones you've lost or look through photos. Listening to what our bodies need when we're grieving is very important. As somebody who also gets nightmares sometimes, I find these things very useful.

Have you considered speaking to a counsellor about how you're feeling? Not sure how old you are, but it sounds like you may be school-aged, and school counsellors can be helpful if you're wanting someone to talk to.

I hope this helps, and please feel free to keep chatting with us if you'd like to.

All the best, SB

Re: My Ongoing Fear

Mario_Sonic — Wed, 29 Oct 2025 11:48:10 GMT

Hey. Thanks for that. I’m in my early 20s. I left school in 2022. My councillor who I had at the time, he was a great person and he actually left some time after I did because no one was taking me seriously then. So yeah

Hallucinations

Mario_Sonic — Tue, 18 Nov 2025 11:42:23 GMT

This is something I wasn't sure where to post, but anyways...here it goes...I have been suffering from hallucinations of losing my Nan and Pop...I have schizophrenia so my mind tends to think of things that aren't really happening...I just...I need some female comfort... *Crying* 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

-Liam

Re: Hallucinations

sbella02 — Wed, 19 Nov 2025 03:31:32 GMT

Mario_Sonic,

Having those kinds of hallucinations must be so distressing, I'm sorry. Even if you recognise that they aren't really happening, hallucinations feel very real in the moment. This is a wildly different scenario, but I tend to hallucinate when I'm really sleep deprived, and even though I have a vague understanding that they're not real, I see them so vividly that they feel real at the time. Our minds also have difficulty distinguishing between what's real and what's not. I suppose this is where professional help can be really impactful, as there are ways that they can either help you deal with those hallucinations when they come up, or get rid of them if possible.

If you'd feel comfortable and if it's feasible for you at this time, it may be worth having another look around for a counsellor or other mental health professional, perhaps a psychologist who specialises in schizophrenia might be good. You can have a look on the APS Find a Psychologist page and filter your search there. Seeing a GP for a mental health care plan can help reduce some of the cost too. 😊

Re: Hallucinations

Mario_Sonic — Wed, 19 Nov 2025 04:34:32 GMT

Thank you but I’m fine.

Re: Hallucinations

Mario_Sonic — Wed, 19 Nov 2025 04:42:03 GMT

I’m seeing a psychiatrist and I’m on medication which is helping me in the long run and I can discuss it further with them. Thanks for your response though.

Re: My Ongoing Fear

Mario_Sonic — Wed, 19 Nov 2025 04:43:58 GMT

I also don’t think that they’re hallucinations I’m dealing with but more so visual thoughts or fears.

Why I Feel Depressed

Mario_Sonic — Wed, 19 Nov 2025 22:56:29 GMT

Hey guys, Liam here. I just wanted to explain something about some of my previous posts in regards to me wanting a girl mate. The reason I keep bringing this up in all my posts is because I feel really depressed about not having a girl in my life to be able to talk to. Like I mentioned, I want a girl who I can hang out with in a similar way to my best friend and she can come with me to family gatherings and stuff like that and most of all, I want this girl to be able to give me a hug from time to time. So yeah that’s why I keep bringing it up in all my posts, because this is the main reason I am feeling this way.

My Good News

Mario_Sonic — Tue, 09 Dec 2025 10:06:49 GMT

Hey guys, Liam here. I just wanted to say that I now finally have a girl mate who I can talk to about my struggles and she’s a great person. Thank you guys so much for listening to me in the time I’ve been here.

Re: My Good News

Croix — Tue, 09 Dec 2025 10:38:02 GMT

Dear Liam~

I'm very pleased you have found someone you can confide in and who will listen. Such a person may understand, or may like my partner do their best and simply be kind and constant -it makes huge difference. If that blossoms into a romance that would be great too. Do remember serious talk is fine, but just as important is fun!

I saw before that you have been very worried about the loss of your Nan and Pop and those thoughts have been a big part of your life. It can be very natural to worry about the death of loved ones, particularly after the death of your friend and your Nan's fall.

I'm not sure you are talking about hallucinations, but more reveries where you think of something to the exclusion of everything else -and many in fact conjure up happy or unhappy endings. Fear of loss is very powerful. Can I suggest you talk to your Nan about this seriously and become reminded she is still here and the person she always was.

If you would like to let us know how you get on that would be great

Croix

Re: My Good News

smallwolf — Tue, 09 Dec 2025 11:47:59 GMT

Thank you for the update Mario! It sounds like things are turning around for you which is great to hear!

Re: My Good News

Mario_Sonic — Tue, 09 Dec 2025 23:23:55 GMT

My name is Liam actually.

Re: My Good News

Mario_Sonic — Tue, 09 Dec 2025 23:24:41 GMT

Thanks mate. I already spoke to Nan and she understands deeply.

Re: My Good News

Croix — Thu, 11 Dec 2025 05:21:53 GMT

Dear Liam~

OK now you have had the deep discussion - which sounds as if it went well, try for some fun with her.

Make you both feel better as I'd be pretty sure your Nan worries about you, so it would make a nice getaway from those serious things.

Croix

Re: My Good News

Mario_Sonic — Thu, 11 Dec 2025 08:28:41 GMT

Of course I will mate. 😊

Re: My Good News

smallwolf — Thu, 11 Dec 2025 10:31:18 GMT

Hi Liam.

I'm Tim. It's good to hear tings are starting to work out for you. I hope this new journey will be good for you both.