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Scared again and dont know where im headed.

Beaser — Mon, 20 May 2024 21:52:44 GMT

Hi and best wishes to everyone..

Im starting to get very scared again and having panic like attacks. I just feel so alone at times and this might sound strange but i feel like a kid who just wants to give his mum a hug. But im 58 i lost my mum at 18 and Dad in 2000 and have no real family support. Im currently not working and dont feel i have the energy to start again. I just do some volunteer work one day a week at a hospital. Ive never really progressed in life i just seem to have filled in time . I feel like i have had enough a times. Best wishes Brett

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Beaser — Thu, 23 May 2024 20:16:11 GMT

Hi and best wishes. Just so tough going at the moment. Got a bad result from my blood tests yesterday. Financially struggling and trying to work through a TPD application . Every thing just seems to be going to crap at the moment. Really feel like i need to just back off from everything today . Just feel overloaded. Best wishes Brett

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Justsad — Sat, 25 May 2024 03:26:03 GMT

Hi Beaser,

just wanted to say I feel for you and send you a virtual hug.

I am feeling the same, its a very scary, sad, lonely place to be. I talk to nobody most wknds and stay in bed crying and distract myself with tv etc.

Just wanted to say hello to you and send some care.

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Beaser — Sat, 25 May 2024 22:57:21 GMT

Thank you Justsad.

And straight back at you with that virtual hug. Also sending my heartfelt best wishes.

Im sorry to read of whats going on for you . It is such a tough battle on your own at times.

Just know that people like me care and understand what its like for people like your good self.

Always here and happy to chat especially if it helps . Bett.

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Chris o — Mon, 27 May 2024 12:16:20 GMT

Hey, hope you are both doing better.

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Justsad — Tue, 28 May 2024 03:35:37 GMT

Thanks so much, stay strong 🙂

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Beaser — Tue, 28 May 2024 20:33:16 GMT

Hey Justsad.

Been wondering how you are doing. Hope your going ok. Sending my best wishes. Brett

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Fiatlux — Wed, 29 May 2024 01:26:59 GMT

Hi Brett,

Just came across your post and hope you are coping as well as you can.

I am 56 and still working but just plodding along out of sheer necessity. I work from home and for my own business so I do what I need to. I couldn’t get out of bed and drive to the office 5 days a week like I used to.

Nobody tells you that it gets hard and often harder. Both my parents were retired by 50 so I had no one to talk about working later in life. It’s just expected of us.

Loosing parents is always hard but it must have been especially difficult for you.

When I lost my dad I was 43 but I realised then that I didn’t have him to call if I needed help with something. He was a very important part of my life. My mother is still alive but I cut contact with her following my dad’s passing. She’s a narcissistic drama queen and she sucks the life out of me. But she still has my brother and sister to look out for her. She and I have never been close.

My only family are my children and I keep going for them in the hope that this mid life exhaustion will pass and I can retire to be a grandma one day. Something to look forward to.

I never had a work life balance and I have worked myself to a point of exhaustion already. It would be great if you could just retire when you clocked up and days and hours rather than by age..

Best wishes, Fiatlux 🙏🏼

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Beaser — Wed, 29 May 2024 21:23:25 GMT

Thank you Fiatlux.

Yes its a tough battle at times My father had retired before i left school, same with my mother. They both deserved too but from a selfish point of view i think it made it harder stepping out of school and into my own worklife. Losing my mum at 18 was a hard thing and my Dad did a great job after that. I know ive had it better than so many others also.

Im sorry to read of you losing your Dad he sounds very special to you. Even more difficult with a tough relationship with your mum.

I have to have an ultra sound today as my blood tests showed a problem with my liver. Im not totally convinced i have a problem but . Im finding this a trigger for me . I guess i have drank since i was 18 so maybe its all caught up. Sorry but just needed to vent about that its hard with no one to talk things like that over.

You are right about retirement i find it a bit unfair that some could access super at 55 but im 60 just because of my birthdate. I really hope you have a good day . Always happy to chat. Brett

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Beaser — Sun, 02 Jun 2024 21:13:58 GMT

Hi Fiatlux.

Hoping you are going ok.. Just checking in and saying hi.......Brett

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Fiatlux — Mon, 03 Jun 2024 04:21:21 GMT

Hi Brett,

Good to hear from you. Hope your medical issues are going well too.

Today is not great. Yesterday I came down with a terrible cough and flu like symptoms. I read that there are quite a few viruses going around and all are bad. My son was home sick last week and I managed to stay away from him until Saturday.

I woke up to a nice sunny day and as soon as I felt motivated to get out to some gardening, it started raining.

I am not used to getting sick. Prior to contracting COVID in 2021, I rarely had any issues. I certainly have never had flu before and now that I’ve had a virus I certainly know the difference. I never had anything like this flu virus before.

My son still isn’t back at work today as he still has an awful dry cough. As I work from home, I managed to get through enough work today and I’m about ready for a nap.

Trying very hard not to pass this on to anyone. Have a great week. Fiatlux 🙏🏼

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Beaser — Wed, 05 Jun 2024 22:01:58 GMT

Hi Fiatlux.

Hope you and your son are going ok after catching the virus. Certainly plenty around at the moment.

I had covid for the first time about a month ago. I was lucky it was very mild and ive had a lot worse colds.

I was doing my volunteer job yesterday at the hospital and things certainly seem a lot busier up there.

wishing you a Happy Day. Brett

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Happylife — Thu, 06 Jun 2024 00:25:11 GMT

Hi Fiatlux and Brett,

Hope you both are doing good.

Take care and get well soon.

Warm Hugs...

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Beaser — Tue, 11 Jun 2024 20:54:01 GMT

Hi to every one and best wishes,

Been i bit of a tough time the last few days. I was hacked on my facebook account and found it very stressful and upsetting. I completely lost my page after answering what i thought was a legitimate message from a friend.

It was my way of keeping in contact with some family and friends.

I guess im just fragile with things like this and feel violated . Sorry but just needed to vent about my feelings and hope this doesnt sound too silly, Best wishes to all.. Brett

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Justsad — Sun, 14 Jul 2024 03:32:14 GMT

Hi Beaser,

so sorry for the late reply havent logged in for a while. Today is a struggle trying to keep it together. Very lonely existence.

Hope you are ok!

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Beaser — Sun, 14 Jul 2024 20:12:39 GMT

Nice to hear from you Justsad.

Im sorry about what your going through and i can certainly relate to that feeling. I know with myself that the world events of yesterday have upset me . I didnt have a very good weekend my footy team was terrible and yesterday was pretty lonely.

I hope you have a safe and better day today and i hope you feel ok at some stage to touch base and let me know. Best wishes Brett.

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Beaser — Sun, 10 Nov 2024 19:36:48 GMT

Hi i hope everyone is doing well.

I find myself struggling in recent days . Im not sure if its just feeling sorry for myself.

I am so tired from fighting and never getting through. The list of things this condition has cost me is taking its toll.

I actually feel guilty for feeling this way.

The future just scares me at the moment.

Best wishes to everyone.

Beaser.

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Happylife — Tue, 12 Nov 2024 03:05:55 GMT

Hi Beaser,

Sorry to hear that you are going through some challenges recently.

Please try not to think too much about the future and just focus on the present.

Hang in there, I am sure things will get better. We are all here for you...

Take care

Happylife

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Beaser — Thu, 14 Nov 2024 00:03:54 GMT

Hi Happy Life

Thank you for your kind reply.

I know you are right about not looking too far ahead . It is a great way to stir up my anxiety.

We all can really only focus on the current days and do our best in the moment.

I had a good day yesterday at my volunteer role at a Hospital. It was very busy but rewarding.

Wishing you a Happy Day.

Beaser

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Beaser — Sun, 09 Feb 2025 21:51:24 GMT

Hi and wishing everyone all the best.

Sometimes i really question my feelings . Its a bit strange but its like am i really entitled to feel the way i do . Ive battled so hard from early teens to nearly turning 59 now. Depression and anxiety has taken so much. For example i never felt confident enough to have children because i wanted to keep life as simple as possible.

I worked fulltime untill 3 years ago but couldnt handle the toxic workplace i was in after 15 years. I know that work is important but i just couldnt handle my situation any further i was wondering can people understand that and do i need to justify it to others.

I have no family connections and i get very lonely sometimes its important to put these things down here.

I wish everyone a Happy Day Beaser