topic Re: Struggling in Anxiety

Struggling

blues23 — Fri, 15 Jul 2022 10:11:26 GMT

Having a bad time lately lots of things happening at work I went to work safe cause of Persistent bullying behaviour from co workers , and ever since I did this my anxiety is thru the roof I have so many people poking prodding making me relive the things those people did to me I am so sad and scared and just want it all to stop all I want is a safe work place where I won’t be bullied threatened and assaulted is this too much to ask ? Obviously it is I’m my workplace

Re: Struggling

Beeee — Sun, 17 Jul 2022 05:47:51 GMT

Hello blues23,

I'm so sorry to hear of the troubles you have been experiencing at work. You absolutely deserve a safe work place and I hope that it is something you will soon have. Contacting Safe Work was definitely the right thing to do, but unfortunately it does mean you have to explain what you have been experiencing and relive the awful memories.

Have you considered taking some time off work? Taking a break might be helpful to get some distance and breathing space.

Wishing you the best,

Beeee

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Mon, 18 Jul 2022 12:27:30 GMT

Yes due to being injured and going on work cover ( process pending) I am on a break it doesn’t stop work from contacting me , putting me thru more stress by having to relive it over and over. It’s a hard slog my mental health is so bad I had a lady turn up today from work ) not my work site) to drill off something I brought before I got injured and I didn’t answer my door for 20 minutes in fear it was my boss cause she had a white car . The whole thing the bullying, the work safe investigation is too much for me it’s taking such a toll I feel I won’t get a job after all this has finished with and I’m finally recovering from my anxiety over work place bullying and my injury and all these thoughts just keep creeping in all the time .

Dear blues23, We are pleased you found the strength to p...

Sophie_M — Mon, 18 Jul 2022 20:01:17 GMT

Dear blues23,

We are pleased you found the strength to post about your struggles with workplace bullying. Our supportive community is here to help and support you. It can take longer for members to respond right now because we are adjusting to an upgraded forum.

We understand that you have been having lots of difficulty because of concern that those from work who bullied you may come by at any time. Have you discussed this with your GP? Whilst things are in process, it might help to get a mental health plan set up so you can work with a Psych.

Also, we invite you to ring BeyondBlue Support Service on 1300 22 4636 to talk with one of our mental health specialists whenever you get overwhelmed. We also encourage you to call Lifeline on 13 11 14. Both services are available 24 hours a day, every day of the year.

Please feel free to post here whenever you wish. We are always here for you.

Warm regards,

Sophie M.

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blues23 — Tue, 19 Jul 2022 08:19:31 GMT

ThAnk you , yes it’s a struggle, I have got counseling set up but it’s not until august and I’ve recently found out my work is already readvertise my role without there even being a yes or no from work safe there is also the issue of that fact that I’ve been paid out my entire annual leave I’m not sure why that is the case . A family member of mine says it looks like they ( my work ) has terminated my employment without even going thru the worksafe process .

Re: Struggling

james1 — Tue, 19 Jul 2022 09:07:54 GMT

Hello blues23,

I'm sorry to hear about the bullying and threats, that's really bad and it sounds like you are really struggling with it. I'm glad you were able to go to worksafe, but it sounds like your workplace is still putting a lot of pressure on you.

The august counselling is a short time away, so I wanted to ask if you have any other supports in the meantime? E.g. do you have a GP you could speak to, or have you tried calling the support lines before that Sophie M mentioned?

James

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Tue, 19 Jul 2022 09:39:34 GMT

Hi James

yes I have gone thru the supports have seen my doctor probably need to go again as the anxiety its becoming a lot worse . Yes I have spoken to beyond blue help line and various other supports I’m trying my best to not let it get to me the work safe investigation the whole thing it’s very hard on top of the already 11 months of bullying & harassment I’ve already suffered sometimes it’s all too hard to cope and deal with all these things that keep coming at me and most days I find it really hard

Re: Struggling

james1 — Sun, 24 Jul 2022 11:09:18 GMT

Hello blues23,

Sorry about responding to you a bit late.

I understand. It really is a lot you are going through right now and in the past as well. You mentioned your anxiety is becoming a lot worse. How are you managing? From what I've personally been through and also spoken about with others, it seems like the experience can be different from person to person, so I don't want to make any assumptions. If you'd like to share anything about your experience and if you have any coping strategies, you're more than welcome to share whatever you feel comfortable to. We may not be able to provide the same clinical advice and help that a counsellor can in August, but hopefully we can give you our support as people who have been through similar experiences

James

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Sun, 24 Jul 2022 11:47:07 GMT

Hi James

some days it’s really hard , I either have panic Attacks or stress internally most of the days , coping it’s subjective I try to keep busy today I was stressed again after being stressed on Fri as well . I baked today ( baked a cake ) and kept busy most of the bay without much break in between doing things( no time to sit , rest or think) certainly it’s a way of coping to keep myself so busy I can’t have time to be going too much into what’s going on . I don’t / am not this busy most days I usually walk quite a lot which helps sometimes but the stress is still there I’ve found myself walking up to 2 hours a day which is ok I’m fit but it still doesn’t help me much , I try doing normal things like washing the dishes ect that helps as my mind on the task not the issues I’m having. I’m pretty bad if I’m completely honest at like managing it I can do it but some days it’s so overwhelming and the stress just pops Back in .l don’t have much family i can vent to only one member and they have there own stuff as well . My parents are sorta ok to talk to but made the suggestion I should go back to work at this place I call hell. I cannot even begin to face that prospect of that I cannot even . So I mentioned would u like to go to work be hit be abused be put in situations where people u work with have deliberately sabotaged things so u end up getting hurt ( and you ask for help from your supposedly supportive manager) do u get help no , you get told ur feelings don’t matter and that u are imagining things . There is also a lot of anger and rage I have at the issues that have caused me so much anxiety the rage is huge and when it comes it comes but there’s no one to rage at so it just sits festering . I’m away from that situation while my injury heals and work on my mental health but what will come of it , the future scares me what will happen how long can I manage without an income while work safe investigates . I try not to think on these things but they are very real the what ifs and what will happen . It’s very scary .

Re: Struggling

jaz28 — Sun, 24 Jul 2022 22:19:32 GMT

Hi blues23,

I am sorry this is happening. It is great that you went to Safe Work, that is an important step. They may need to ask you questions so they can get a picture of how to help you. Your employer should not be making this hard for you, and if they are, you should continue reporting it to Safe Work. Everyone deserves a workplace where they feel safe and protected.

Have you taken some leave? Maybe this will help you regain some power over your mental health?

Jaz xx

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Mon, 25 Jul 2022 08:32:57 GMT

hi jaz

yes I’m going on leave as I have been given no capacity to work from my dr . I don’t know if it’s the right thing or not to go to work safe but I felt I had no other option as my manager doesn’t care what happens to me and has stated that my feelings don’t matter in the workplace so I’m pretty much done with any communication with her whatsoever she’s not a human I can respect after those words left me so unable to cope and triggered a series of events in my mind that just can’t be undone .

thank you for your support and kind words it really helps . 🙂

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james1 — Sat, 30 Jul 2022 14:19:15 GMT

Hey blues23,

How are you going? Just thought I'd check in on you as it sounds like you reached the end of your patience with your manager and needed to take time out to care for yourself, which sounded like it could be really helpful.

Have you already started your leave?

James

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Sun, 31 Jul 2022 11:22:11 GMT

Hi James

im really you and down more down than up most days really , still struggling with nightmares, disturbed sleep and some triggering dreams that don’t make me feel too good . Yes I am on leave I have no capacity to work at the moment I have one more day before worksafe decides If they take my case or not it’s quite scary to think about I’ve currently been on leave for around 4 weeks I’m still struggling thou , it’s not that I reached the end of my patience it’s more the fact that no matter what happens to me at work she won’t help me and sides with the people who are bullying me and rescuers to help me in anyway and blames it on me not communicating properly when all I’ve done is communicate I have over60 emails asking her for help with these bully’s all have been dismissed .

Re: Struggling

james1 — Thu, 11 Aug 2022 01:04:43 GMT

Hey blues23,

I'm really sorry, I thought I replied but I must've forgotten to actually reply.

How did your case with worksafe go? And have you had your counselling session that was scheduled for August?

James

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Mon, 15 Aug 2022 05:00:40 GMT

Hi James

sorry I’ve been offline too been detoxing as much as I can , yes the work safe case got approved I’ve just started counseling it’s very hard to go thru my counseling says I’m only early stage yet I have to get to the end of the hard part which is the first step I guess . I’m finding today hard cause I had to talk about it and answer emails from the wellness team at work and well that’s just a whole barrel of fun . How are u going ?

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james1 — Tue, 16 Aug 2022 15:00:31 GMT

Hey blues23,

Detoxing sounds like a great idea. I'm so glad to hear your case got approved and you've been able to start counselling. I really hope you find it helpful, as it sounds like you could really do with some good quality support.

I am doing well thank you. I busted my wrist at training on saturday which is really annoying, but it's been healing in a brace so hopefully I can get back to training with a bit of wrapping on. Mentally, I have a psychologist who i see really regularly and have been for the last 6 or so years. I found it tough at first, but by now it's just a really nice thing to have regularly, and to know someone has my back. So it's probably been the most stable few years I've had in memory.

Hope you have a nice week. Let us know how you go - we're here for you if you are finding this part particularly hard, and whenever you just need a friendly ear.

James

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geoff — Tue, 16 Aug 2022 16:19:28 GMT

Hello blues, it's good Work Safe have approved your case, so I would ask them whether or not you have to answer your works emails because what you say may be used against you if a settlement has been organised.

It would be difficult going back to this workplace, because all of this may intensify and make it more difficult to work there under these circumstances.

Geoff.

Life Member.

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Thu, 18 Aug 2022 11:11:27 GMT

Hi James

im trying to detox I’ve had quite the battle last fees days my work complaining my wwc are wrong dates ect all things out of my cont as my Dr is the one filling them out so I can’t help his mistakes . Other than that had a few scans on injured shoulder and hopefully treatment will help that heal , the mind is still taking its time . Trying to rest as much as I can . Your wrist sounds painful , how did u hurt it ?

i hope my psychologist can also help with my anxiety and depression around my situation

Re: Struggling

blues23 — Thu, 18 Aug 2022 11:17:53 GMT

Hi Geoff

Thanks for your reply ,

how are u ?

I agree it is very hard to fathom going back to my workplace very hard .i haven’t said much to OHS co ordinator at my work in regards to return they think I’ll be better in like 3 sessions of therapy which they are dreaming , I haven’t really responded much in emails in regards to returning to work they know I’m not communicating with my manager and will not communicate with her she’s a toxic human and I want nothing to do with her I can’t help that I’ve made that clear it’s how I feel and I won’t be subjected to her treatment anymore,so that’s pretty much set in stone I think they hold out hope I’ll forgive her but I never will so right now I’m just trying to focus on my recovery and remove all toxicity and whatever will be will be In regards to Returning to work .

Re: Struggling

james1 — Mon, 22 Aug 2022 12:23:48 GMT

Hey blues23,

Eurgh, that just sounds like a real frustrating experience. Hopefully they get through the paperwork now without too much hassle.

Have you had your session already or is it coming up this last week of August?

I injured my wrist at brazilian jiu-jitsu. It's actually an old injury from years ago, and I seem to have sprained it badly again. I suppose it was still weak from before. It's very frustrating because I now have a constant left wrist injury, right tennis elbow injury, a weak right ankle, and both my big toes are also just very weak from old injuries too. And I'm not even 31! I think I'll need a mechanical body by 40.

James