topic Worried in Anxiety

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 10:28:36 GMT

Hi , new to this , don't know what to expect , suffer from anxiety and depression and C-PTSD , live alone out in rural Aus and just wanted to talk , some form of contact ,

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Guest9337 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:00:39 GMT

G'day Rainshaddow, welcome to the highly complex internet life of forumming on of beyond blue!

Plenty of people will chat here.

What you doing this evening?

I'm trying yet again to keep my feet warm having just finished home made leek and potato soup.

dng

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:05:52 GMT

Hi dng , thankyou for talking to me , I'm just sitting watching tele trying to keep warm , experiencing anxiety die to a heap of things going on , living alone seems to make it worse as I have nobody to talk to , rural living means neighbours are some distance away

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:07:58 GMT

Soup sounds good , I should eat some food I guess , not hungry these days but know I gotta eat , potatoe and leek soup sounds good

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:11:01 GMT

Oh that should say due to a heap of things going on , small type screen on phone

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Guest9337 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:18:40 GMT

What tv show you watching?

I've got a few The Good Doctor season 3 lined up or I might go with Loki episode 6 the climax of loki's first season.

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Kitty1991 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:22:07 GMT

Hi Rainshaddow,

I am new here too. I was diagnosed with depression about a year ago and severe anxiety about a week ago. Saw you thread and freaked out a little about replying. Then thought stuff it, if Rainshaddow can be brave enough to post I can pull up my socks and reply.
So hello. 👋 . I am sorry you are going through a tough time at the moment and I hope things get better soon.
How was your day though? You mentioned you live in rural Australia. Do get to see many native animals? I have a possum that lives outside my house in a tree. I love to see it scamper down nightly to go foraging around Brissy.

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:24:27 GMT

I have the big bang theory and castle , I have a huge collection of DVDs , it's frustrating though as I have difficulties concentrating on anything , my brain just can't seem to take in any info anymore , can't watch news or current affairs or any show that has any yelling or screaming in it or any heavy drama , it's gotta be funny or lite hearted ,

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Ggrand — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:24:47 GMT

Hello Dear Rainshadow,

A very warm and caring welcome to the forums..

I am sorry your struggling so much with your mental health..

Like you I live alone but in the central west NSW..and can relate to how it seems harder to manage our mental health when on our own....

I also have anxiety m depression, C-ptsd and a couple more mental issues..to try to manage..

Do you have any pets?....I have 2 little dogs that help me feel less lonely..and I know this might sound silly...I often talk to them, moreso when I’m doing it hard..

Here if you feel to talk about anything at all..I’m listening to you Dear Rainshadow...and hope to hear from you, when you feel up to it...

My kindest thoughts..

Grandy..

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Guest9337 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:30:55 GMT

My UncleD put me onto big bang theory and I have seen all twelve seasons, its hilarious!

Wife loves Castle, but not my thing. We stopped watching the news over ten years ago. Too many reminders of painful suffering about things we cannot control.

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:32:30 GMT

Hi kitty , thanks for replying to me , I was nervous about replying to your thread too , so hello to you too 👋 yes I'm in rural wa , and yes I see wildlife around , kangaroos outside the house , rabbits , plenty of birds , magpies and kookaburras , I have seen possums around aswell at nite , my day was a bit low , anxiety has a hold of me , I was diagnosed with anxiety and depression 3 ish years ago , and cptsd about 2 yrs ago ,

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:36:26 GMT

Hi Grandy, thanks for replying to me , sorry to hear you have some of the same issues I struggle with , it's no fun eh , no I don't have pets , I don't think I could cope with looking after a pet , my accomodation is shaky and I'm not working ATM so worried I could end up homeless , it terrifies me

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:38:51 GMT

Yep big bang is good , unused to laugh all the time , was told I had a great sense of humour in the past , I don't laugh anymore and some people I know have commented on it , can't laugh if I don't feel it anymore

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:41:21 GMT

My anxiety manifests as the squirt of adrenaline in my stomach , fast heart beat and breathing , and I can't stop worrying about a whole raft of issues . How is it with you ?

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Guest9337 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:44:05 GMT

Rainshaddow said: ... can't laugh if I don't feel it anymore

TOTALLY!

I went off comedy shows for about a decade, just didn't want to laugh.

Fortunately and eventually I decided I did indeed need to laugh and so I made comedy a rational act.

What can I find today that makes me laugh out loud?

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:48:56 GMT

I look forward to sleep as I feel it's an escape for me . How are you coping with things , have you found anything that helps you ?

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Rainshaddow — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:51:17 GMT

Yep I hear ya , I have heaps of comedy on DVD , sometimes I do laugh and then feel guilt as if I shouldn't be laughing ,

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Guest9337 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:51:33 GMT

I love the bliss of sleep too, so lovely to warm up my bed, pulling the quilt cover and sinking into the bed.

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Guest9337 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:55:19 GMT

Feeling a little guilty about laughing, hmmm. Yeh, I can understand that.

Sort of like watching someone fall over, laughing, then realising they've hurt themselves.

Like if Jerry Lewis the king of comedy fell over, we would laugh, but he would get up crying and we would feel sad and then he'd smile and we'd be glad he smiled. Weird stuff all in the space of seconds.

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Kitty1991 — Thu, 15 Jul 2021 11:59:20 GMT

My heart races and I am constantly in flight or fight mode - if that makes sense. If something startles me (which is ridiculously easy to do) my fist response is ‘I’m going to die) and I kinda panic in a controlled everyone is watching me way. I don’t know if that makes any sense. And I get quite confused with so many thoughts running around in my head that eventually my bad just shuts off so I am numb, and my mind is finally quiet. Then I cry.