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Cannot do this again.... anxiety and depression

Tugboat — Sun, 12 Jan 2020 22:36:51 GMT

Hello again,

I have not been on here for while, which I suppose is a good thing! I suffer with what I call health anxiety and have done for many many years on and off. Just before Christmas this year I had trouble breathing including shortness of breath. I went to my GP which he did ECG and blood tests for my heart function and all was good, however I still struggled with the problem and started to over think things.... as I do! I quite over weight and think that’s why I am struggling to breathe however I always think it’s something more, like I’m going to die........ this takes over my mind and therefore I find it difficult to think straight and positive. I find my self not wanting to socialise with family or friends and I block my self off from them as I don’t want to annoy them. I no longer enjoy the little pleasures in life and find it difficult to eat. I am currently on medication for depression and have medication for anxiety if needed, which at the moment I take medication twice a day or as needed. I also feel nauseous in the morning and it settles down through out the day, sometimes! Really struggling getting out of my safe haven ( bed) in the morning as I don’t want to face another day anxiety.

Hate feeling this way and I try to be positive

Cannot do this again.... anxiety and depression

Peppermintbach — Sun, 12 Jan 2020 22:57:04 GMT

Hi Tugboat,

Late last year sounds particularly rough for you. Your health anxiety must take so much out of you...it must be so draining and distressing...

I feel sad to hear how your mental health is affecting so many aspects of your life...it must be hard to find the confidence and motivation to socialise/spend time with friends, even if that (connection) might be something that would actually help you...

I can relate to how bedd can be a safe haven, but I suppose most of us humans need more than that in the long-term...connection, socialising, meaning, etc...things like that. That said, I also understand it’s very difficult to venture beyond your safe haven....

I know you’re taking meds and have seen a GP, but I’m wondering do you also receive support from a counsellor or psychologist?

I hope it’s okay for me to ask. The reason that I’m wondering is I think they might be able to help you come up with strategies to help you manage your anxiety...just a gentle idea...

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper

Cannot do this again.... anxiety and depression

Tugboat — Sun, 12 Jan 2020 23:38:11 GMT

Hello Pepper,

Thank you for your reply, it always helps reaching out on the forum. Over the years I have seen many councillors and psychologist but unfortunately they have not been able to help me.... I suppose it’s finding the right one to connect with. My GP has given me another referral so let’s see how that one goes. Cannot stop crying today it’s so straining

Cannot do this again.... anxiety and depression

Peppermintbach — Wed, 15 Jan 2020 22:11:20 GMT

Hi Tugboat,

You sound as though you’re hurting and struggling. Sometimes the tears just flow...I feel your sadness...

I’m glad to hear that reaching out here helps though. I think you’re right, it can be a bit of a struggle to find a psych or counsellor who is a good fit for you...

I think there’s often a bit of a trial and error process involved before we can find the right psych or counsellor. I understand that process can be disheartening at times.

Well done on getting a new referral from your GP- I think that’s a brave step forward. Hopefully things work out...

No pressure to reply, but is it okay if I ask how have you been doing since your latest post?

Kind and caring thoughts,

Pepper

Cannot do this again.... anxiety and depression

Tugboat — Thu, 16 Jan 2020 21:42:04 GMT

Hello Pepper

i have been struggling all week 😞 I am currently having Some tests done and get results back this morning, so my anxiety is out of control. Thanks for reaching out to me

Cannot do this again.... anxiety and depression

Peppermintbach — Thu, 16 Jan 2020 22:21:45 GMT

Hi Tugboat,

What a rough week you have been having...

I know tests and results can be very stressful and nerve racking...you sound very overwhelmed and worried. The anxiety must be so debilitating....

Thinking of you,

Pepper