topic I never said yes in Anxiety

I never said yes

TheLastSlice_ofBread — Mon, 23 Dec 2019 06:15:36 GMT

I don’t feel safe
I’m always bracing for the worst
Knowing that it hurts
Not just from being a kid
But through though the experiences I have lived
why did people see yes?

while I silently screamed no

why was i expected to be the best?

when I couldn’t calm for my much needed rest

I feel so damn guilty for the
way I feel
But feeling is the only thing i have

to remind me that ok I am real
I’m not perfect
Nor am i a defect
This is just the way it is
My life
My journey
My me

I never said yes

Aaronsis — Mon, 23 Dec 2019 08:17:38 GMT

Hello TheLastSlice ofBread

What a most powerful and beautiful and well as heartbreaking piece of writing.

You most certainly have captured your pain and your feelings so very well and I am hoping that when you write that you get to feel some relief from the pain that I can feel in your words.

You are so well written and have expressed your emotions so very well, we are here if you want to chat some more, if not that is fine too, what ever you feel comfortable with, you will not be judged or criticized here.

Thank you for sharing this amazing collection of powerful words.

Huge hugs to you.

I never said yes

Croix — Mon, 23 Dec 2019 11:04:33 GMT

Dear TheLastSlice ofBread~

I find a lot in your verse, but not everything, I know there were unrealistic expectations by others, and that perhaps in some ways you have taken them on board yourself.

That you have not been listened to when you did not wish to say yes - though that particulate word has so many overtones for me for me that I am not sure I understand you, or am putting my own feelings in your place.

Also that at some level you recognize being you is enough.

This Forum has its own section for poets:

Forums / BB Social Zone / The poetry corner - post your poems in here

You might consider posting there.

May I ask what you would ideally like happen because of your verse?

Croix

I never said yes

TheLastSlice_ofBread — Sun, 29 Dec 2019 04:31:15 GMT

I am not English person at all and I know it could have been said in a much better fashion but thank you for your support

that’s as much as I can let people see

I never said yes

Aaronsis — Sun, 29 Dec 2019 04:36:12 GMT

Hello TheLastSlice ofBread

That is totally fine that you have shared as much as you feel you would like to, at anytime we are here to chat and it does not matter if you are English, Egyptian or French, people are people and we are here to care and support everyone, and that means you too. As I said before, I think you have expressed yourself beautifully.

I am happy to hear you have found the post helpful.

Hugs to you

I never said yes

Croix — Mon, 30 Dec 2019 12:20:36 GMT

Dear TheLastSlice ofBread~

With poetry - and also normal speech, it is the ideas behind that are important, and only a basic level of the language is needed for these .

Please do not think just because I have not understood everything you wrote it is any failing of yours. It takes two people working on a poem, one to write with depth and ideas, the other to read and use their mental resources to understand.

I'm not always good at understanding poetry, so I would think it is my shortcomings, not yours.

Your command of the language is fine.

There is one other thing from your poem I do understand, and that is guilt. I do not know why it happens but when people are treated badly they take on the guilt themselves, as if the bad treatment was in some way their fault.

This in never the case. It is the other person, the one who treats badly, who is at fault. And if as a result of these things you cannot rest, that too is their fault, not yours. If your feelings are unhappy, again that too is their fault, not yours.

Croix