Ready to slay my chronic anxiety

bethechange86 — Tue, 18 Dec 2018 06:31:34 GMT

I have started off my post with a positive title (even though I do not feel positive yet) as I am hoping this will be the start of me slaying my almost three year battle with anxiety, which over the last few months has become chronic.

I have always tried over the last couple of years to deal with it myself, trying to tell my brain that I am better than this and I know better than what is going on internally in my mind. But I now find myself here, and at my GP and soon to be at my first psychologist appointment as I cannot do it on my own. I am scared, terrified even. Rattled to the core with fear that this will never go away and this state of being is as good as it gets. However sometimes I have flittering moments where I step outside of the shadows and I see a glimpse of the other side, of reality, of being present, of being excited about life and all that it offers. So somewhere inside me a small part of me believes that this can be beaten and I am not dying or going crazy or giving up on life. The almost constant dizziness/off balance feeling, heart palpitations and feelings of almost constant fear will go away with hard work and dedication and I will go back to being the present mum of two who was successful at both parenting and her career.

I was of the mindset that this could not happen to me. I was the one who used to say that you just need to be strong and anxiety is weakness. Well I know now how wrong I was. It can hit anyone at any time and for any reason. Over the last couple of years I have said I will get better to be better for my kids or my job or my family, but no, I need to get better for me, then I think the rest will fall into place.

I take my hat off to you all, being brave in sharing your stories and fears. May we all slay these awful states of mind and enjoy this magical adventure we call life.

Ready to slay my chronic anxiety

quirkywords — Tue, 18 Dec 2018 21:49:21 GMT

Welcome bethechnage to the forum.

This is a caring, friend,y , nonjudgmental and supportive place.

Congratulations on making your first post and starting you won thread. it can be hard to write down your feelings so well done.

i like your positive title and your positive username.

Many people will relate to thinking anxiety or depression will not happen to them and feel that being strong is enough. The strong ones are those that keep on trying.

You have spirit and determination and resilience and that is a good role model for your children.

Sometimes anxiety will always be there as part of one’s life but it may be able to be kept under your control.

I hope writing down your story has helped you as it will help others reading this.

Feel to post here as much as you like.

Thanks again for sharing your story and thoughts

Quirky

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Ready to slay my chronic anxiety

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