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Justanothermum — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 00:50:48 GMT

Not sure where to start and not even sure why im posting or if anyone will see..

Im a mother of 3 children. Ive suffered on and off for about 3 years with anxiety (social and health) but ive alaways managed it myself. But last week something happened and i started googling symptoms which i wish i never had now and went downwards fast!

I was convinced that something bad is going to happen to me and ill need some sort of major surgery. Now i just cant get out of this down mood im in. Ive never been this bad. Everymorning i wake up in a panic attack and all day im down.

I just dont see this getting better and im not sure i could live a whole life everyday like this!

I have booked in to see a gp tommorow as i cant live like this. but ive just moved to a new area and will be the first time seeing a dr. So im not sure what to say and im not even really sure how seeing a gp is going to help me. Im really struggling to see how this can get better and how will i cope everyday like this.

Any advice on seeing a gp doctor especially one who ive never met before?

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demonblaster — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 01:37:54 GMT

Hi Welcome & yes you're being heard 🙂 Well done opening up

Sorry that you're feeling this way & am sure you're although you don't think so doing the right thing seeing a GP who can give you a MH care plan to see a professional who can help you work through your anxiety.

I was on a thread here where others feel as you do so knowing you're not alone with these feelings can be of some comfort too I hope.

Distraction can be very helpful when you're getting consumed with feelings, do you have interests or do exercise which is a great stress release in itself, I walk hills but flat walking is great too.

Our thoughts can be consuming as your finding, I've in the past when stress has come out in anxiety attacks used hard self talk, no nonsense approach which has settled me back down, concentrating on breathing which gets erratic.

Hope to hear from you again & how you go with the GP.

All best 🙂

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Justanothermum — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 02:14:11 GMT

Thankyou so so much for a reply being heard by someone after the few days ive had helps out more then you can know!..

Thanks for all the tips i do appreciate them.

Very scared the gp will just do nothing and then i wont know where to go from there. Will keep updated

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demonblaster — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 02:36:52 GMT

yw darl 🙂

IF GP doesn't act on you could see another one till you get what you need hun.

Btw well done handling it before, that's strong, do you remember what you did, could help for now too.

Thx reply 🙂

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Justanothermum — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 08:16:57 GMT

Every other time i have sort of just rode it out and worked through my feelings but this time is probably the worse i have been.

Unable to eat wake up feeling sick scared and heart racing so fast!

Thanks again for the reply x

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demonblaster — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 12:17:26 GMT

Be careful not to atomically believe the first thoughts they can be dangerous. Allow rational mind

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MsPurple — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 12:45:09 GMT

hi justanothermum and demonblaster.

I have found a lot of forum users have health anxiety. It is such a shame that this symptoms and fear isn't written in the common symptoms section (anxiety over health and fear of unknown or non-existing illnesses in oneself).

I thought I should let you know what I did when I had some health anxiety. I tried meditation (using an iphone app called calm, any app will be good, I chose this one because I like her voice) which helped calm my racing thoughts which can make health anxiety worsen. I also do self-reassurance. Now I don't know if this is a propper thing but I have found it has helped for me a lot. I just tell myself "you are ok, you are healthy, you are not unwell, you do not have x, this is just your anxiety, this fear will pass". I would say something like that to myself a few times and it started to sync in

I agree with demonblaster that talking to a gp and possibly seeing a psychologist is a great idea. All the tricks (so to speak) can help, but it doesn't eliminate the underlying problem of anxiety which you need to hash out with a professional. I wouldn't be as well as I am without support

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geoff — Mon, 01 Jan 2018 17:58:52 GMT

hi Justanothermum, I'm pleased that you have booked an appointment with a doctor who you seeing today, just write down what is troubling you, doesn't have to be in any order, but don't miss out on that one problem you maybe hiding, that could be the key to what is wrong.

The trouble with googling, and yes I have been guilty, is that there are so many different explanations of what maybe the problem, so you take the worst 'diagnosis' and run with it, not only does this make you spiral downwards but you assume everything else is wrong with you.

The doctor will give you a diagnosis and then further treatment will be organised by them, but anxiety is awful because depression is not that far away.

Please let us know how you get on with the doctor. Geoff.

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Justanothermum — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 02:44:47 GMT

Thankyou so much for those tips i really appreciate it 💙

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Justanothermum — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 02:45:38 GMT

Thanks so much for the reply i really appreciate it.

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Justanothermum — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 03:08:11 GMT

Just an update.

I went to the doctors (after being sick from nerves) and she was actually so nice. I didnt feel like she judged me at all. She listened to what i have to say and gave me some test it was out of 50 and i got around the 40 mark. Obviously that isnt very good but shows how much i have been struggling. She rang a phsycologist and got me in asap.

Now i know i have a long road ahead of me but just from that dr listening to me and me learning a few tricks already from this forum i feel like there is a light at the end of this. Yesterday i was sure no one could help me but im feeling just that bit more optimistic today.

So thankful to everyone that took time to reply to my thread your kind words really wete helpful after the rough days i have had! 💙

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demonblaster — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 05:19:29 GMT

That is sooo good to hear, very happy for you & you're very welcome

So glad the Dr was lovely and here helping wow, this is great

If you want keep us tuned in be happy to hear how you're going 🙂

Thankyou for such a good update, you're going to get through & have a great attitude
All very best x

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Justanothermum — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 07:48:05 GMT

Thanks demonblaster.

Its great to feel a glimpse of positivity even though my moods seem to be so up and down. I definitely keep posting in here its actually been really therapeutic for me. Talking has helped alot.

Watch this space. ✌

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demonblaster — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 08:42:48 GMT

lol ok watching this space 😄

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MsPurple — Tue, 02 Jan 2018 10:17:58 GMT

Hello again

I am so glad the GP appointment went well and you felt comfortable. It can be a bit on an eye opener realising that you on that test (I'm guessing it is the k10 or something similar) you score high, but it is good to know that you can get help and move on. Yes it maybe a long journey but it is one I am glad I took.

With seeing the psychologist just be open. Now for me the first appointment is a getting to know you and get some of your history (e.g. when did anxiety start for you? what is anxiety to you? etc). So don't feel discouraged if after the first appointment you don't have a breakthrough or revelating moment (some do but for me I didn't). Personally it takes me till app 4 to really get into it. This is ok and just letting you know it is normal. Also if you don't feel like you click with this psychologist this is also ok. Just book in again to see your doctor and ask to see a different psychologist due to not clicking. I have done this before and it is ok. If anything dr encourage you to point out if you aren't clicking because they want you to be able to really open up in therapy.

Keep us updated and I'll pop back in 🙂

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Justanothermum — Wed, 03 Jan 2018 01:09:07 GMT

Thanks for all the tips.. 💙

Woke up today first day without some sort of panic attack in about a week so i was feeling optimistic. But things seem to change for me so quick. Im back to feeling panicky that im going to get some sort of terrible health problem and something terrible and painful is going to happen im honestly over feeling like this. Ive gone from feeling optimistic to not sure how talking to someone is ever goinf to fix this.

Im sorry if i sound sooky but ive wanted to document my journey so maybe one day i can look back and see how far ive come.