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Dealing with anxiety: Issues with work and stress

Chick1 — Mon, 12 Jun 2017 10:30:33 GMT

Hi everyone,

This is my first time posting and being a part of Beyond Blue online.

Over the years I have suffered from a lot of anxiety and OCD type traits. It's been really difficult for me to deal with my own behaviour, which I know myself is not a rational way to behave. I have problems with needing to constantly move things, not in any particular way just needing to move everything that I notice has been touched by someone else- this mainly is only inside my home as I can control it in my work environment. The problem has been a lot worse lately.

I am working for a company that is high pressure and i have been at this role for almost 8 months. I am yelled at constantly, but not just told off they scream at me in front of the other staff members, tell me I am hopeless and swear. I am constantly blamed for things that aren't even my fault. I thought that i was coping with the yelling, as I could go home and continue to work ignoring the problems, I don't even cry about it anymore. Although, I have noticed that there are physical effects from this that is contributing to my anxiety and my behaviour. I have been sleeping for hours on end, I go to bed at 9pm and sleep through until 7:30am- I have to leave the house at 8am for work and I use to walk my dogs every morning but I find that I cannot get myself out of bed anymore until I am almost running late every day. At times, I have been so stressed about going to work, that i have had issues with being sick.

They offered me a full time job, but i could not afford the pay cut. They removed the offer and advertised for my replacement, who I will be training. I have not been told that I will be loosing my job, at this stage they have said that they are a back up in case I want time off- but I know this is not the case. I thought that i was okay and coping, but everything seems to be not only effecting me but it is having terrible consequences on my fiancé, who does not deserve to go through it.

My fiancé has told me that I am nasty at the moment, that I keep talking about my job and making niggly comments to him about everything. Everything is annoying me but I don't seem to realise. In my sleep, I continually push my partner off of me, I won't let him near me but I don't know it is just sub consciously happening. On top of this, I cannot control my need to move things anymore- I know i need to see someone about this to but i guess that i dont want to admit to myself that i have an issue.

Dealing with anxiety: Issues with work and stress

blondguy — Mon, 12 Jun 2017 11:38:27 GMT

Hi Chick1

Welcome to the forums and good on you for posting too!

You have a full plate right now. I understand where you are coming from as I used to have chronic anxiety for years and also worked in a high pressure senior level job too.

OCD is like anxiety...very common here with the posters and there are many with both.

I know your plate is full (overflowing) but can I ask how often you see even your GP? They have much better training and awareness compared to even 10 years ago and well worth a visit.

A good GP will be huge bonus for you right now......especially if you make a double appointment and have a really good vent and ask for some ideas....You have everything to gain and nothing to lose Chick

There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you, no worries at all 🙂

The forums are also a judgement free zone. You wont be judged here in any way......only supported

I hope you can stick around Chick

my kindest thoughts for you

Paul

Dealing with anxiety: Issues with work and stress

Chick1 — Sun, 18 Jun 2017 07:56:36 GMT

Hi Paul,

Thank you for your reply and support. Since I posted this, I have been looking for a new job and I will make myself an appointment to talk to the GP. I really appreciate all of your kind words.

Thank you

chick 1

Dealing with anxiety: Issues with work and stress

blondguy — Sun, 18 Jun 2017 21:43:23 GMT

Hi Chick1

Thankyou for posting back!

Good on you for looking around for new job and being proactive with your health re your GP.

I hope your anxiety is giving you a break even a small one in the time being.

you are not alone

my kind thoughts for you

Paul