topic New and Anxious in Anxiety

New and Anxious

Gamermum13 — Sat, 18 Mar 2017 03:15:46 GMT

Hi everyone,

I've turned to these forums today because I feel like my anxiety is at a tipping point and I am drowning under its waves. I've suffered from it most of my life (I'm in my late forties), I'm on medication, I've seen psychologists..but it's still there, like a tsunami waiting to engulf me on a daily basis. No one at work knows I suffer, as I wear an extrovert's mask which, in itself, is exhausting. I was just wondering if anyone else feels like they're being constantly punished for something because bad things seem to happen on a daily basis? Even when I dare to feel content or happy, it never lasts long and now i'm just too scared to feel thhat way because I know I will be punished for it. Might be the Catholic upbringing I had..I don't know. All I know is today, I wish I could curl up in a corner and avoid the world. I'm sick of pretending to be strong and that I can cope, because I can't and I don't want to.

Apologies for the bleak post..probably not the best intro..

Regards,

GM13

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Croix — Mon, 20 Mar 2017 01:38:44 GMT

Dear GM13~

Welcom to the bb Forum and thanks for your post. I know it is quite a hard thing to set out your personal details to a bunch of strangers, however there is hope here, as many have been down similar paths and want to help. There is absolutely no need to apologize - if all was well you would not be here.

Your symptoms sound similar to some of mine. I suffer from various illnesses having had depression and have chronic anxiety. When down I have felt like you. While you don't actually say your diagnosis I'm guessing it's similar. I also have had to maintain a mask with others.

No matter what it is it looks like your treatment is not being properly effective. As a person with long term illnesses I can say that medications and therapies need adjustment, and can at times be right off. Trying to find the best balance is a time consuming, and sometimes a discouraging job. Nevertheless when it does 'çlick' it is worth it.

May I suggest you go see your health professional again and lay out the facts, your current state, and how it's been in the past. Then have a discussion as to what needs to be done. Should this not be satisfactory there is nothing against seeking another opinion. Good rapport is essential.

On another matter, do you have a family, or anyone to talk to and support you? I found this has always been a great help to me. Another help is doing the exercises in an app like Smiling Mind - I find it of benefit when I need to break a chain of thoughts.

Ok, please post again and say how you are going, you'll be met with care and understanding

Croix

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Gamermum13 — Mon, 20 Mar 2017 09:32:21 GMT

Thanks so much, Croix 🙂 i'm feeling better today. In fact, I was feeling better later in the day I made my post. I just had a potentially negative situation raise it's head, and I blew it all out of proportion and made myself anxious & sick in the process. It happens ALL the time and it's utterly exhausting! I'm seeing my GP on Wednesday and will ask him for a referral to someone who can help me get my anxiety under control.

Thanks again for responding, it was really helpful.

GM13

New and Anxious

Croix — Mon, 20 Mar 2017 09:59:35 GMT

Dear GP13~

Thanks for your thanks - makes me feel good:)

Look, You can come here anytime. As you say blowing things out of proportion and then having the reactions (a specialty of mine too 🙂 happens far too often. So make use of the Forum as you need.

Good luck on Wednesday

Croix