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I feel like I am running on pure adrenaline

Matilda26 — Sat, 15 Aug 2015 13:32:03 GMT

I've never posted on here before, but I was wondering if anyone feels any similarities to this. I feel like I am running on pure adrenaline, I just can't seem to feel calm. I feel like I'm constantly whining and I can't stand myself. I am in a stressful job, but I feel like I'm less than everyone there and I could be a better person than I am currently being. I do enjoy my profession and I'm also studying my post graduate certificate in my field.

Along with the anxiety comes the lack of self worth. I have good friends, but currently find it hard to comprehend why they would want to spend time with me and this leads me to start isolating myself.

i just wish I could feel calm and happy or just peaceful.

I feel like I am running on pure adrenaline

Neil_1 — Mon, 17 Aug 2015 00:37:25 GMT

Hi there Matilda

Welcome to Beyond Blue and thank you for providing your post – your post which would resonate with so many of us, so the answer to your question is: Yes. There are many similarities to how you feel to what so many of us experience (or have experienced).

The self-worth question, the lack of self esteem, why would people want to hang around me, I’m no good at my job, etc.

May I ask if you’ve been to the doc to discuss these issues? And if you have, what recommendations did they provide to you?

It’s awesome that you are in a job and that’s a huge bonus that you enjoy your profession – keep on with that, as that is crucial in so many respects for you. I’m also hearing that you’re studying for post graduate in your field – now I have no idea what that means, but to me, that means that you’re more cleverer than Joe Average, so might I just say here and now, that if you can, you should stop for a sec just to think about that. Undertaking extra study and doing a post grad, not only sounds awesome, it no doubt IS awesome and would mean that you’re blessed with a hell of a lot of good grey matter – and you’re putting that to good use. So with that in mind, I would be rating you as a very intelligent, clever, gifted and talented person.

You’ve also got friends – friends who want to be seen with you – another HUGE tick for you.

These are all great things Matilda. Keep thinking of yourself as being clever, as being loved by your friends, because you clearly are.

I’d also love to hear back from you.

Neil

I feel like I am running on pure adrenaline

Matilda26 — Mon, 17 Aug 2015 13:36:23 GMT

Hi Neil,

Thank you so much for your reply. I actually went to see my doctor today. I tend to forget my accomplishments and concentrate on the negatives - I guess an easy human trait.

I personally find it extremely hard at work. I don't go to any work social functions. I feel like I don't fit in, and people are talking about me and I am somehow less than everyone else. This seems to be something of an Achilles Heel for me, trying to challenge these horrible thoughts I have about myself and self worth.

My biggest regret in life (something that I am unable to forgive myself for) is that I left my husband in my twenties because I assumed that he would end up leaving me. When really I had no evidence that he was going to. This hurt him terribly. It was an extremely selfish act.

i just wish I could feel calm and happy or just peaceful.

I feel like I am running on pure adrenaline

Matilda26 — Mon, 17 Aug 2015 13:39:18 GMT

Sorry I messed up the previous post 😞