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The tiredness at beating this

Bluey_moon — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 09:25:30 GMT

Despite being pretty good during the day, at night the anxiety gets harder to deal with.

The fear I'm feeling paranoid about people watching me when I know they aren't, anything really that used to make me anxious!

I am practicing all the techniques and I know I will get better, I know it takes time and practice.

I just needed to confide!

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Bluey_moon — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 11:41:29 GMT

It's just so hard!

I see my psycologist Wednesday, so I'm looking forward to that.

Quite frankly I've been a b***h to my husband all day, taking offence to every little thing he says!

I can't get my mind of being paranoid, I think I'm sending myself crazy. Worrying about things like cameras in a specific piece of jewelry my husband gave me, when I was starting this meltdown. I know it isn't true, at least I hope I know!

I am just having a bad day I know and expecting miracles from the meds! And I know I have to work at the other techniques.

I was fine all day at work, then bam!

I feel like the worst wife and mother, addicted to google,(searching for paranoid personality disorder and if my meds can cause paranoia ect). Just feeling like I'm not a good person tonight!

Sorry for the depressing post.

Im telling myself now, pull yourself togeather women, be the wife and mother you should and can be!!!

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Mummybee — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 12:04:17 GMT

Skye

breathe, you're not insane

stay off google ! Please

wait for Wednesday, your anxious not paranoid.

You're ok.

we are all here and all our money is on anxiety

mummybee

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Bluey_moon — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 19:04:33 GMT

Thank you Mummybee.

i just don't know what to do.

Just before I was tying to settle my son and was half asleep and I swear I heard my husband talk but he was asleep beside me.

Straight away I'm like, I'm hearing voices...... The scizophrenia is here.

And now I want to cry.

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Bluey_moon — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 20:05:38 GMT

Tired of feeling like this, tired of being scared!

Want to be a good mother and wife!

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Bluey_moon — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 20:27:09 GMT

And I think my husbands just about done with it all!

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Mummybee — Sun, 22 Nov 2015 23:11:18 GMT

Two more days until your appointment?

walk today.

If there were teleports I would suggest we walk together.

maybe in spirit

hope today brings some smiles

mummybee

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Bluey_moon — Mon, 23 Nov 2015 01:42:49 GMT

Mummybee,

you make me smile!

I spoke to my psyciatrist this morning on the phone who assures me it is my anxiety and tiredness and stress levels.

So I feel a little silly for panicking but relieved.

Thanks for caring!

Skye

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Mummybee — Mon, 23 Nov 2015 03:02:05 GMT

I told you my money was safe !

thats good news, at least it seems to have given you some relief for now. The sun is shining where I am today and it's put me in a good mood.

tomorrow will most likely be horrid, I can't seem to string two good days together lately.

keep smiling

mummybee

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Chicken_Wings — Mon, 23 Nov 2015 06:19:09 GMT

Skye I hope you're starting to feel a little better?

You know you've got this. You know deep down that these thought's aren't true. You know.

I used to think people we're putting things in my food. I also knew it wasn't true. But it stopped me from eating some pretty good stuff!

If your husband shows frustration it's because he knows you don't want to feel like this. He knows you hate this and you want to be good. He knows you will be and he knows that this is hard for you.

Being half asleep during the night and hearing weird things is completely normal. Sometimes I'm pretty sure I can hear my neighbour at 3am. On the other hand, it might be the ceiling fan or my dog or the house settling or just my brain having a conversation. Because I do that all the time too, practice conversations I'm going to have.

You give such wonderful advise on here. Make sure you keep some of it for yourself ok.

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Bluey_moon — Mon, 23 Nov 2015 10:57:49 GMT

Chicken wings and Mummybee,

thank you so much for your advice and support, it means so much!

Chicken wings, I'm feeling better. When I'm tired my brain goes into an overdrive spak attack. I love being a part of this community!

Mummybee, your money is safe! Thank you for talking me through a rough time! Hey let's go for two good days in a row!

Thank you both for believing in me the same way I beleive in you!

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Bluey_moon — Mon, 23 Nov 2015 11:24:59 GMT

Thank you Mummybee and Chicken Wings,

I really appreciate you support and belief in me and the great advice!

Mummybee, your money is safe! Thank you for calming me down! And being such a wonderful person! And let us both aim for two days in a row of feeling good!

Chicken wings, you give the best advice and reassurance, your posts provide so much support and advise, you are a terrific person!

I am forever grateful for you support!

Tomorrow is a new day!

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Bluey_moon — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 00:20:59 GMT

Oh man, just when I thought today was going to be great! I was falling asleep on the couch while my little boy was asleep and bam thought I heard someone call my name, now the worrying has started! Sitting here crying, thinking I'm going nuts!

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Mummybee — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 03:50:34 GMT

It was probably a sound that your half asleep brain interpreted as your name.

youre ok, Skye.

getting a mid day sleep sounds like a good idea though! I wish my youngest still had a day sleep!!

mummybee

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Bluey_moon — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 04:43:27 GMT

I know Mummybee!

Being a bit silly! Thank you though for your ongoing support!

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Chicken_Wings — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 05:29:59 GMT

you're doing great Skye, you're not going nuts.

Remember to use what you know.
Remember to challenge these thoughts that you're having.
Remember that you are not going crazy and you've been checked by a doctor.

I was reading something just before that might be helpful for you:

Our brains are organs devoted to solving problems, just like our stomachs are organs devoted to digesting food. When we direct them to solve a problem, like adding up numbers or reading a paragraph, brains generally do a good job. But there is no "off switch" to the brain. It is always looking for problems, just as our stomachs are always waiting for food. When our brains lack problems to solve, they often make some up.

I read that paragraph and it really made me think.

You are ok Skye. Go back to your good day.
You deserve your good day so let yourself have it.

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Bluey_moon — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 05:33:24 GMT

That paragraph really struck a cord Chicken Wings! Thank you again for just be so darn reassuring!

How is your day? Did manage to eat something?

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Chicken_Wings — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 06:02:20 GMT

Skye,

If you want a song to listen to, this one really helped me.
It perfectly puts into words how this feels, but is somehow empowering, it makes me want to beat this. It makes me know that I am not alone and that someone else can capture this in words. It's also great to walk to!

Go on youtube and look up Andy Bull Black Dog.

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Mummybee — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 10:33:23 GMT

chicken wings!

love that song

well done for thinking to share it

mummybee

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Bluey_moon — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 11:12:07 GMT

Thanks Chicken wings, I will look it up!