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Panic Attack

Guest_1055 — Sat, 14 Nov 2015 23:11:50 GMT

This morning I know I had a mild panic attack. Gosh I have not had one for ages. For which I am very thankful. At the moment I am so fearful of what the people think of me. Because I was in a situation where I needed to explain an issue to two people. And they were looking at me with such trustful eyes. I didn't want to fail at verbally speaking. I am not sure if they understood and I could feel my voice shaking and that awful feeling of Mr dread and Mr fear creep up upon me. How I long to be free of those forever.....

Shelley anne

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Guest_1055 — Sun, 15 Nov 2015 00:16:35 GMT

The earliest recollection of fear was a situation where I was about 8 years old. The fear was wearing an item of clothing that had, what I believed at the time, tiny holes that were their because a mouse had nibbled it. I didn't want the clothing to touch my skin. I remember all that crying and a feeling of not being comforted or understood.

Feelings of dread and fear came to me, when it was the days we drove out to see my grandparents and other relatives. I hated having to be amongst other people, I always felt like I was sitting on the sidelines watching everyone else living, talking, laughing and jumping around. It seemed like no one saw me at all. I am trying to think now, if anyone said anything to me, but I don't recall that. I only remember the feeling of loneliness, the feeling that something was wrong with me. I think the only reason at all that I liked it was so I could eat sweet biscuits, cakes and chocolate ice creams from Mr Whippy, with the music. In my teenage years when it was that day to visit, that same dread and fear would re visit me. To the point where I refused to go at all, so I would hide at home, sometimes curled up under my blankets, because it was dark and our home was situated in a remote area. Please to not mis understand my parents were very kind and I now know they loved me the best they knew how.And I cherish them with all my heart.

Anyone else had similar experiences while they grew up?

With kindness to you dear reader.

Shelley anne

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The_Count — Mon, 23 Nov 2015 23:23:57 GMT

Hello shelley anne,

You sound brave to me as you faced the panic and fear head on and dealt with the situation. It maynot have felt like a victory but you were courageous all the same.

Panic attacks and social phobias are hard to walk through but we care. Keep on going and fight the good fight.

Bye for now

The count

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Guest_1055 — Tue, 24 Nov 2015 06:06:14 GMT

Hello The Count

I love your name by the way, reminds me of Seasme Street.

Thank you so so much for your kind words to me, I felt so encouraged by them. You touched my heart deeply, so much that tears of gratitude and appreciation, well.... just rolled down my cheeks.

I felt understood by you also. And for some reason I have this deep desire to be truly understood.

Yes you are right, panic attacks are very hard to face and stand up to. I am thinking what helped me stand up to this attack, was love. I was driven by love for that particular person. Maybe love is like a weapon or tool to help fight. Not sure about all that though????

Well thanks again, and with much appreciation to you" The Count"

With love xxx

Shelley anne

PS Did you watch a lot of Seasme Street then?

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The_Count — Wed, 25 Nov 2015 00:00:25 GMT

Hi Shelley Anne,

Some seaseme street but thunderbirds my faviourite.

Bye for now

The Count

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Guest_1055 — Wed, 25 Nov 2015 06:41:10 GMT

Hello The Count

I have never watched thunderbirds myself.

xxx

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Lucille — Wed, 25 Nov 2015 14:09:08 GMT

Love is like fire. It burns brightest when it has the most to consume. It is a wonderful slave but a most terrible master. It can help you through the coldest winter nights, and sometimes even save your life. But it can also burn you, and scar you. As long as you keep that in mind you'll never have to worry about love or fire, as they walk hand in hand, leaving you behind.

That's almost poetic, don't you think?

Sorry, I have a very twisted mind.

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Guest_1055 — Thu, 26 Nov 2015 03:04:08 GMT

Hello sweet Lucille

How you going today?

Hey ! I could not understand what you were saying but thank you for replying . You seem to be popping up in a lot of my threads lately.

With hugs to you

Shelley anne xxx

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Gruffudd — Thu, 26 Nov 2015 07:46:21 GMT

Hi there Shelley anne,

I found what you wrote here interesting. Do you think that the memories of when you were a child are recorded in a different way? When I think back my childhood memories seem to be all emotions and smells and vivid pictures. They are not stories with a beginning a middle and an end in the same way as my grown up memories. There are things from my childhood that when I remember I find myself upset. When I read your posts above I wondered if it is something like a smell or a particular feeling from driving out to the relatives that starts you down the track of panic even now. For me the answer is yes, if I smell a particular gum tree the same unpleasant memory returns and with it the deepest sadness for about 2 days. I am glad to hear that you are finding some ways to control the panic like focusing on love.

Rob.

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Guest_1055 — Sat, 28 Nov 2015 07:58:10 GMT

I am not entirely sure if the memories are recorded different when we are little. But maybe it has something to do with reasoning???? Like a baby doesn't really reason, or think about why things are happening. There brains sort of just store the information in via their senses. Well I think that is right? Am I on the right track do you think? Don't believe I have answered your question though.

I think it was a feeling that I experienced whilst driving on out, I am guessing it was fear.

I'm so so sorry Rob, for the pain and deep sadness you feel, from the memories of whatever happened to you. I truly am. I wish I could just take it all away so you wouldn't feel it anymore.

Many many hugs to you

Shelley anne

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Emmy. — Sun, 18 Sep 2016 07:33:18 GMT

Hey Shell. Do you still experience the panic attacks? Can I suggest a really good little book called "Living with IT" by Bev Aisbett - you may have read it. It's a light hearted look at panic attacks but it is all so true. I take it with me when I go away. There's a series of different books.

Fear is such a strong emotion isn't it. Do you still suffer from feelings of fear and worrying about what people think of you? For me I do too. My psychiatrist recently diagnosed me with "avoidance personality disorder" and it explains alot about me and now why I'm developing agrophobia tendencies. Do you find it hard to leave the house at all?

Please don't feel you have to answer my question but just know you're not alone. I see this thread was from November so hopefully you're working through it with a professional.

Lots of love to you Shell. Emmy x

PS I understand what you mean about the power of love

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Guest_1055 — Tue, 20 Sep 2016 12:28:31 GMT

Hi Emmy

You found this thread...Thanks heaps for thinking of me. How are you coming along?

As to the panic attacks.....One come upon me probably about a month ago now. It was only a mild one though. I was driving on my way to a support group, and I was running late. Just as I was turning into the road there were roadworks, plus a detour. I guess the fact I was running late ( sometimes I don't like walking in front of people, because they stare at you, when you walk in late, and I may just feel awkward about that. etc) and also the fact, I would have to drive a different way, or something. Well it just seemed a bit much at the time. Other than that I am pretty much free of them. Thanks too for caring enough to mention to me about those books. I haven't heard of them before. So what is the "It" , is it the panic attack itself, or fear?

Oh yeah fear is a very strong emotion, I totally agree with you. But I am coming to believe that love is so so much more stronger and powerful than fear. I can see why you understand that love is powerful. Because you chose to go with your hubby on those outings and things even though you were scared. My perception of that, is you went because you really love him and it would make him happy?? So perhaps you were motivated by love hey?

I wouldn't say I worry about what people think of me. But I definitely still struggle with the fear of being rejected sometimes. I also struggle with the rejection itself, so not feeling like people really love me or something.This might be based on wrong thinking on my part, like I believe lies. This is an issue I am still learning in this "group".

Yeah I knew you were diagnosed with that disorder. I read that it your thread. I did have trouble leaving my house a few years back. I was fearing what the neighbours thought of me and didn't want to be seen by them or something. I also had trouble going into shopping centres, because I would feel extremely self conscious and awkward. I think I actually feared feeling those feelings. I even had trouble knowing how to hold my physical body.... But I don't have a struggle now leaving the house at all. But I do remember what it feels like, so now it is my time to say to you dear Emmy, 'you are not alone'. Thanks for saying that by the way...

I received your lots of love too...thank you very much. Love and a hug also to you. Also I am so happy for you Emmy, that you are experiencing some victories in your own life.

Take care now

Love Shell xx

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Cornstarch — Tue, 20 Sep 2016 19:28:57 GMT

Memory is absolutely positively sensory.

Ask anyone who has PTSD. That's why it can be so hard to go out in public if you're scared that'll you'll have a really horrible flash-back because you can control environments. Also our fear perception is malfunctioning.

I hope everyone on this thread receives some relief from their panic attacks.

You can definitely cure them. And if not cure you can get to a point where you feel the energy surge up inside you, but are able to observe it from some distance and they don't escalate any further than that initial surge.

I have lost count how many I've had. They make you feel like a wally don't they.