topic iWork in progress in Anxiety

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Bluey_moon — Thu, 14 Jan 2016 21:40:11 GMT

Hi guys,

just wanted you to all know to never give up!

Today I am a little anxious and my silly thoughts are hanging around waiting for my attention, but you know what, they aren't getting it!

Ive come to far to go backwards now!

Skye

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White_Rose — Thu, 14 Jan 2016 21:44:03 GMT

Hello Skye

Congratulations! Distraction is the name of the game. Get stuck into something absorbing and the thoughts will go away.

Way to go Skye!

Mary

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Bluey_moon — Thu, 14 Jan 2016 22:43:10 GMT

Thanks Mary,

Im really trying! Sometimes it seems so hard. But my brain tends to recycle the same old thoughts, so it's getting easier to say, that's my OCD.

The thoughts that I might become paranoid suck, but my psych said they are part of my Obsessive thinking! And that because I know they are just thoughts I'm doing ok

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Bluey_moon — Fri, 15 Jan 2016 07:43:03 GMT

Now I'm really struggling, I'm obsessed with the idea I have scizophrenia! It breaks my heart, I don't want to be this way! 😭

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Simona — Fri, 15 Jan 2016 08:55:30 GMT

Aww so sorry to hear you are having such a bad time Blueymoon. I used to fixate on things too but i don't know what it's like to be paranoid about having schizophrenia. When i had psychosis i FELT well but my behaviour indicated i was very unstable and struggling with reality ie- i stayed in the one spot all day because i was convinced that if i moved all the sharp kitchen utensils would come flying at me. So all day i just sat and..sat.

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Bluey_moon — Fri, 15 Jan 2016 22:36:27 GMT

Hi Simona,

thank you for your kind words!

If it's not too personal a question, what caused your psychosis?

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Simona — Sat, 16 Jan 2016 02:19:04 GMT

Well my mum said I was always abit different but the psychosis really hit at 17. Why - well most probably from my dad. He's been in/out of psych wards. So it's most likely a family inheritance

I have never been certified. My parents didn't want me to have anything on record and there was a fair amount of shame involved. Not understanding me sometimes worried/challenged people but their subsequent reactions to me often made things that much worse. Example: the violence, being locked in a room, held down for long periods.

In my world, I was operating just fine. The fact i spent an entire day not moving from that one spot in fear of the sharp kitchen utensils flying at me was a reasonable act of self preservation. I was living my own normal.

I hope you are feeling better today Bluey moon : ) It's beautiful out here

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Bluey_moon — Sat, 16 Jan 2016 08:22:32 GMT

Thank you for your honest reply Simona!

Today has been a bit better!