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I am a new member

Yamba_Girl — Sun, 07 Feb 2016 07:00:10 GMT

Hello - I'm Yamba Girl and just getting started with the forums etc. Just thought I would say Hi.

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Crygirl87 — Sun, 07 Feb 2016 07:10:14 GMT

Hi. How are you? I'm new as well. Feeling really low atm and thought it might be good to reach out. What brings you here?

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Bluey_moon — Sun, 07 Feb 2016 08:19:44 GMT

Hi Yamba girl and cry girl,

Welcome to BB.

There are lots of people here to help and listen and they give great advice!

I love both your profile pictures, both purple flowers!

Skye

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hope4joy — Sun, 07 Feb 2016 10:54:06 GMT

Hi Yamba Girl & Crygirl87,

Welcome to the forum. Its lovely to see that you both have purple flowers in your profile pictures!

How are you Yamba Girl? What's brought you to the forum?

And hey Crygirl87, I'm sorry to hear you're feeling really low just now. What's going on for you?

Kind wishes, Christina

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BKYTH — Sun, 07 Feb 2016 11:03:16 GMT

G'day to both of you. Would like to know more about what brought you here. Philip.

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Crygirl87 — Mon, 08 Feb 2016 00:44:27 GMT

I am not sure why I am so kow atm. I was in a great place at the middle of last year and things felt right for the first time in a long long time. I achieved some reall big goals but then I started doubting myself and started making myself more isolated. I stopped doing something that has always made me happy (horse training). Nothing bad has happened I am just sinking and I don't know how to get back to a good place. I want professional help but I just cant seem to decide to pick up the phone and call a dr or something.

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Crygirl87 — Mon, 08 Feb 2016 01:42:18 GMT

*low not kow.

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hope4joy — Mon, 08 Feb 2016 05:03:29 GMT

Hi Crygirl87,

Congrats on your achievements last year! Sorry to hear that things have started to slide since then.

Are you able to get back into horse training? It sounds like it is your passion and brings you joy? I get lost when I don't have art in my life, it really sustains my inner world.

And it seems like a struggle to reach out for help. Have you ever spoken to a dr about mental health before? Do you have a regular GP that you trust? Personally I hate asking for help, in some ways I hate therapy too - I wish i didn't need it and that i could manage on my own, but for now i just can't so i try to be grateful for the help i receive, even if it does frustrate me at times.

Nice to chat,

kind wishes, Christina

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Bluey_moon — Mon, 08 Feb 2016 08:00:14 GMT

Hi crygirl,

Wow, so proud of you for achieving so much last year! That's awesome!

Is there a reason you gave up horse training (I love horses, I used to ride as a teenager, I miss the freedom of it! ) I used to ride Arabians!

I love my GP, do you have one you could trust, you could approach?

Hang in there hon!

Skye

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Crygirl87 — Tue, 09 Feb 2016 00:59:46 GMT

I have a horse. I am just not riding at the moment. I have always since my earliest childhood been a sad person and could never really form friendships that lasted very long. I just can't connect with people. But I found a connection with horses. They make me happy. But lately I am avoudung doing anything that puts pressure on me. I guess training is hard to do sometimes on your body and teaching a young horse involves miles and miles of work. Which at the time was making me happy and fit. Then I had to take a break for a while for the horse to rest as he was buggered and sore from 12 weeks of breaking and training. After that my mood just has plummeted and I am anxious to get back into training but I know physically it is going to hurt for a while. Its not that big of a deal but my mind and body are reacting to it and I keep pushing it away to the too hard basket in my brain.

I have had very little success with gps. When I was 14 I wanted councilling outside of school and my mother took me to a female gp. That basically laughed at my worries and said it was just puberty. It wasn't, I was very depressed. She gave my mum a no. For a local councilor but in the end mum never arranged it for me and I never went.

At 18 I went to a gp because I had insomnia and headaches. He prescribed an anti depressant. He said I was just stressed from the HSC. I started taking it but my mum talked me out of it. She said it was bad to take chemicals that mess with your head. I don't know why she thought like that.

At 21 I had a newborn and pnd. I started taking an antidepressant after a health nurse refused to let me leave her office as I got a bad score on the depression test the make you do. I went to a gp and he prescribed anti-depressants. They never suggested or offered councilling. I stopped taking them just before we tried for baby #2. They didn't do much besides make me feel numb like an emotionless zombie. I didn't like that feeling.

Over a year ago now I went to a gp ( i live in a rural area we never have the same gps for long). I told her I get anxiety and feel depressed. And she told me to exercise and eat healthier food and take vitamin B6. It took me all my effort at the time to get the courage (i can be very socially anxious or as others call it ... SHY) to ask for help. I do have an active lifestyle and Ido eat well. Vitamins are not going to help me after twenty eight years of me being me.

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Alicia_joy — Fri, 19 Feb 2016 02:25:38 GMT

Hi there cry girl.

It is very frustrating to open up to a professional and have them not take you seriously. Laughing at you is disgusting that id so un professional. .please keep trying at seeking the help u deserve .ask around as to who is a good dr ,counsellor. Once you find the right one things will improve. I can empathise with you ,i had a nurse last week who decided to override the drs and discharge me from care because she just didnt want me there ..i had been admitted for suicidal thoughts and she came roaring in my room told me i have to and im not in a motel for a holiday..my dr was not impressed nor any others i had complained too..i was not meant to let go .she had no understanding compassion anything..so i can understand ur frustrations when you feel laughed at.keep going love keep looking for the right dr .i understand being in a rural area is extra hard..animals are an amazing therapy for so many things if u dont want to ride just spend quiet loving moments with your horse it may be helpful for you..take care alicia joy