I'm another newbie

notadoctor — Fri, 04 Sep 2015 13:55:18 GMT

Hi all,

These forums seem like a great place - I found them by Googling problems I'm having, and finding threads by others going through the same, so that was kind of nice (but sad).

So here's me introducing myself, as much for my benefit as yours:

I'm 24, recently-ish returned to Perth after living in Melbourne for 5 years. I returned due to my partner developing separation anxiety, but it probably wasn't the best choice for me as I was at a top uni and working a respectable job over there and now I don't have much going on for me - people who know me would disagree, but it all feels pointless to me.

I've had on and off mental health struggles for years (anxiety, depression, PTSD, ADHD) and they've recently gone on again, thanks to health-related anxiety and phobias being triggered by my bad health. I struggle to manage these certain health issues, and don't have a supportive family to hold my hand, so everything kind of spirals.

I've been struggling with suicidal ideation a lot lately, which is exhausting me. I'm not at risk of doing anything, but I've gotten so distressed that I've even considered taking myself to hospital. I'm so tired of it.

I've started to look for a psychologist here, and if anyone in Perth sees this and has recommendations I'd love some - there may be a thread for that already so I'll go look. I have never found a psych I've clicked with so I'm hoping to find a match. I usually get irritated because I've quickly felt 'smarter' than every psych I've had - that's not necessarily true, I just have a mile-a-minute mind, and need to find someone who I think can keep up with me and/or take my attitude, cause if I think they can't I fail to trust them.

Thanks for listening 🙂

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I'm another newbie

Narniakid — Sat, 05 Sep 2015 13:02:39 GMT

Hi notadoctor, welcome to the forums and thank you for sharing with us.

I am sorry to hear you're going through a rough time at the moment, however I want to applaud you on your decision to join the BB community, as there is so much support and advice here to be given, as well as just having people who actually listen. You're doing a good job looking for a psychologist too, despite not being able to connect with previous ones - it took me 3 or 4 to find the right one, but once I did, I was able to make astounding steps forward, so don't give up looking!

Have you considered other types of treatment other than sessions with a psychologist? There are lots of different things you can try including yoga, medication and art therapy. I suggest having a good look at the information here on the website.

If you ever feel you might be in danger or unsafe, please call the hotline. We're always willing to listen, stay strong!

Crystal

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