topic Re: running on empty in Welcome and orientation

running on empty

WonMoreDay — Wed, 04 Dec 2024 03:07:44 GMT

All I do is absorb pain! Mental or physical the world doesn’t mind.
god (yeh right) knows I’ve had an abundance of both.
Socialising equals drugs alcohol & addiction.
getting clean equals gym & sport…

A POSITIVE!! You’d think so
But you’d be wrong!!

Cos gym & sport equaled bursitis & a broken collar bone (first game) LOL

back to drinking. Back to drugs. Lost my partner. Living alone in one of those prison cell share house bs single occupancy mini apartments.

cant socialise, cant train.
On a waiting list for clavicle surgery.

anyway I just wanted to vent. There’s nothing anyone can say or do.
I just don’t understand why ending the pain is something people aren’t supposed to do

Re: running on empty

ANONY1988 — Wed, 04 Dec 2024 05:24:23 GMT

I'm really sorry you're feeling like this right now, and I truly empathize with the pain and frustration you're experiencing. It sounds like you've been through so much, and it’s understandable to feel overwhelmed. Please remember that even in the darkest moments, there are people who can and want to help. Reaching out to someone, even like this, can make a big difference. You’re worth that support, and even though things seem incredibly tough now, there are better days ahead. Please take care of yourself.

Re: running on empty

WonMoreDay — Wed, 04 Dec 2024 13:43:25 GMT

Thanks for your reply. It’s great to hear from anyone. It’s a long story but I was booked to see my psychologist and waited 7 weeks and I had notes and everything ready and she canceled a week before cos I hadn’t seen her enough times over a year.
Why not tell me that 5 weeks ago.
so I’m supposed to start all over again with someone new and pay all that money?
since then I’ve contacted online groups for help and it takes weeks maybe longer to see anyone.
both parents are deceased. Sisters on drugs. No children. Alone.
And can’t get help.
So I type “thoughts of suicide” in Google and find this forum.

can you tell me where I can speak to a professional about losing hope for life ?

Re: running on empty

tranzcrybe — Thu, 05 Dec 2024 11:56:00 GMT

⭕️ "I just don’t understand why ending the pain is something people aren’t supposed to do"
- Because doing so would be like throwing the baby out with the bathwater.

Oh, and one thing doesn't necessarily equate to the other:

🔴️ Socialising introduces temptation for drugs and alcohol, but it is you who makes the call on how high (or low) that bar is set.

🔴️ Getting clean may include exercise and sport (and are positive steps to take), but also requires retraining the brain to avoid relapse.

Dealing with perceived failure is also a consideration needing more flexibility in thinking as we can expect too much from ourselves in the early stages (overcompensating) especially after setbacks where our confidence has been shaken:

🟢️ your collarbone will heal in time.

🟢️ you can return to the gym (walk, drive, or public transport?) - even sooner to work on other areas or find guidance from a trainer or physio to manage your injury while awaiting surgery.

🟢️ you might take up a less hazardous sport

🟢️ you can socialise but perhaps avoid 'participating' too much under the circumstances.

💡️ If not tried already, there are advisors here for extra support on the help lines:

🔹️immediate-support

🔹️chat

🔹️email