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I’m the Imperfect Perfectionist

imperfectperfectionist — Mon, 05 Dec 2022 14:34:33 GMT

Hi Beyond Blue community.

I’m new here, but my head has been like this forever. I hope you like my username, it took me all of three minutes to pick - I’m already trying to start being more proactive in timely decision making (see further below for why I’m explaining this).

I’m a thirty something woman, awaiting for my first appointment with a psychiatrist - hopefully quickly as I’m falling and falling quickly.

I always thought how I felt or how I live life was ‘normal’. I always thought that how I feel is how everyone feels but now I’m not so sure. I’m not sad, nor depressed - my mind feels weird, like I’m going and going, though I don’t want to, it’s draining now.

I dont want to self diagnose but for the last two years, and after discussions with family, it has allowed me to rethink that what I feels isn’t normal. Now I’m using ‘normal’ colloquially because there’s no such thing as normal but I guess to define anyone that is different to me. I’m open to a diagnosis of GAD, OCPD, ADHD or all. Weirdly, I’m excited, I need to relate to something in the hopes that one day, I can receive treatment that’ll make me feel calmer and be a better mother.

I have been tracking my habits - I don’t call them symptoms as to me, they’re normal. Most have been existent for the entirety of my life as a minimum, or for many, many years.

Welcome to my imperfectly perfect life.

Re: I’m the Imperfect Perfectionist

Mark Z. — Mon, 05 Dec 2022 18:41:29 GMT

Hi Imperfect Perfectionist,

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry for your feeling and your challenge. But I think you've made wise decision to seek professional help (to see a psychiatrist).

You're right that we don't do self diagnose, because it's too easy to go wrong. However I can tell that your self-knowledge is rising. When you realise something is not right, when you start to rethink, it's a good timing to see a professional.

If you feel comfortable, please come back and update your progress after seeing your psychiatrist. Trust you will be on the right track.

Mark

Re: I’m the Imperfect Perfectionist

quirkywords — Sun, 11 Dec 2022 10:22:59 GMT

Hello imperfect imperfectionist,

welcome to the forum .

You are very self aware and have an insight into your behaviour.
I think tracking your habits as well as your moods will also help you on your journey.m

Thanks for sharing your story with honesty.