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Chunty — Sat, 03 Apr 2021 22:17:13 GMT

Coping ok. Sorry for people affected by it

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Ggrand — Sat, 03 Apr 2021 23:42:45 GMT

Hello Chunty...

A very warm and caring welcome to our forums..

I am pleased to hear that you seem to be coping ok..right now....and your sorry for people effected by it...

I am sorry if I missed something, not sure what your meaning by effected by it..,If you feel up to sharing a little more..I might be able to support you some more...

You sound like you have a beautiful heart caring for those that were effected by it....

Here if you feel up to talking some more....so we can get to know you better......it’s up to you your fee and welcome to about anything you feel to talk about..

My kind thoughts and care dear Chunty..

Grandy..

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Tue, 06 Apr 2021 00:09:45 GMT

Hi Grandy, Thank you for your supportive, caring and understanding reply. That,s why Im responding to you. I feel trapped and helpless. Im totally depedent on my carer because Ive got a terminal illness that is surely progressing. I have no controll. Im living in fear. Im very depressed and have no one to turn to. I have had to cut ties with my brothers for reasons. Im isolated and lonely. Im happy when I see my one friend. She is 85 years old and its hard for her to come and visit. And Im happy when I see my priest. I just want to be with Jesus.A kind uplifting word would help alot. I hope I have,nt put too much on you.I also hope you are ok.Thank you Chunty

Kitty Cat

Sophie_M — Tue, 06 Apr 2021 00:33:24 GMT

Hi Chunty,

Were sorry to hear that you in a trapped and hopeless situation right now. Dealing with a terminal illness and having to rely on carer can be very limiting and dealing with depression on top of all this cannot be easy. Being isolated and lonely must be difficult to deal with and we all need someone to talk to during such tough times.

If things get too overwhelming, we would strongly urge that you get in touch with our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467).

If you would like some help finding mental health support, we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 1pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  One of our friendly counsellors will be able to talk through these feelings with you and can offer support, advice and referrals.

You can also find information on support groups is available on the Black Dog Institute site here - https://www.blackdoginstitute.org.au/resources-support/support-groups/ It might be helpful to join a support group to try and build a social network in your area.

Keep coming back to the forum, the community is here to help and you do not have to deal with things alone.

Kitty Cat

Ggrand — Tue, 06 Apr 2021 03:21:02 GMT

Hello Dear Chunty,,

I am deeply sorry that you have been diagnosed with a terminal illness....

Please if you feel up to it..those contacts our lovely Sophie has given you are good to ring when you are overwhelmed...

I couldn’t imagine how hard it is for you, and the fear you feel would be really hard to manage...I hope you can talk to your priest regularly and your beautiful friend sometimes as well maybe by phone....

Do you know the beautiful and calming poem “Footprints”..I do believe in hard times Jesus is walking next to us..then carries us when it gets to much for us...

Dearest Chunty...I wish I could do so much more then talk to you through the internet...I am here when ever you need someone to talk to...regards of what it is....I hope in a small way that I can take some of your loneliness away from you....

Talk when you’re feeling up to dear Chunty....No...you haven’t put to much on me...and I hope it’s okay to chat to you....I am in hospital now...really lonely as well...

My kindest and most caring thoughts with a huge comforting hug if that’s okay...

Grandy..

Kitty Cat

Sweesoft — Tue, 06 Apr 2021 11:30:26 GMT

Hi Chunty. How are you? Hope you are doing better. Just wanna say hi and welcome you here. See you around!

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Wed, 07 Apr 2021 03:37:23 GMT

Hello Sweetsoft, Nice to hear from you. That is a real cute name. I like it. I hope you are doing ok.

Looking forward to hear from you again. Only when you feel like it.

Take care😋

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Wed, 07 Apr 2021 03:56:11 GMT

Hello Sophie. Thank you for your kind and understanding message. You sure show lot of empathy.

I will certainly take your advice and build up my support and social network.

I checked the site you gave me and it looks encouraging.

I woke up this morning and started crying. I felt emptiness and want to pass on.

It is hard to cope with physical symptoms and low mood.

Anyway thanks Sophie for all your help

Have a nice day😊

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Wed, 07 Apr 2021 04:23:31 GMT

Hello Dear Grandy. I am so sorry to hear you are in hospital. Are you alright? I am concerned. I would like to know how you are going. That is up to you of course. I must thank you for your kind, caring and comforting message.Believe me, it really helps alot. It is also good to know that someone cares.I am also happy to know you are a Christian and the message you gave me about Jesus was very comforting. You come across to me as a kind and caring person. Yes Im happy to have a hug from you. I will give you one too. I dont get any hugs or any kind words, except from my dear friend Vi. Father David also gives me promising things to come and spiritual care.I pray you will get better soon. God Bless. Chunty🍒🦄😋

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Sophie_M — Wed, 07 Apr 2021 05:14:36 GMT

Hello again Chunty,

It sounds like you are feeling quite low at the moment and we want to make sure you are ok and getting support. We really encourage you to continue reading the forums and responding where you want to. It is wonderful to hear that you are going to try and increase your support and social network. As you have found in this thread the forums are filled with wonderful and caring people.

Please remember that you can always call the BeyondBlue phoneline on 1300 22 4636 if you want to talk to someone but if you are feeling really low and think you might be unsafe then this is an emergency and you should call 000.

It is incredibly brave to reach out for support like you have and welcome again to the forums.

Kind regards,

Sophie M

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Ggrand — Wed, 07 Apr 2021 15:59:18 GMT

Dear Chunty,

Yes..I’m okay...but my mental health is being very naughty and trying to control my mind...Needing some professional help to get it all sorted out....,

Its you sweet Chunty that’s I am worried about...I hope today your feeling a little better then yesterday...

Are you able to go outside, if not can your carer take you outside..I find that sitting outside in the beautiful nature that’s around us is very soul lifting...I live in the central west of nsw..in a very small village...I consider my lucky and am very grateful that the neighbours across from my home are cows, birds, trees....and then some kangaroo, rabbits and foxes occasionally...

I just like to sit on my veranda and watch this big old gum tree and all the birds and small creatures that make their home in it......

Chunty, I wish I could take away your illness...It’s really sad hearing someone so sick...I said a little prayer for you last night....I hope you don’t mind...Your friend Vi sounds like a beautiful comfort for you..as well as Father Brown..

If it’s okay to ask...and no need to share if your not wanting to....What kind of things do you like doing....and do you have any pets...I live alone with 2 little maltese x Yorkshire dogs...a mother and her daughter..They are so cute and love playing with each other.....

Thank you for the hug back...I don’t get them either as I have no family living close by....

May God bless you dear lovely Chunty ..

Kind thoughts..

Grandy..

Kitty Cat

geoff — Wed, 07 Apr 2021 19:09:13 GMT

Hello Chunty, and can we offer you a warm welcome to the forums.

It's lovely to know that the people above me have been able to connect with you and your thread is such an important one because of your diagnosis, but you must have so much you may want to tell us, because what you are suffering from is certainly a difficult subject to approach as is another person suffering from any type of depression, so how can we share our belief to either person that all we want to do is listen and support them in every possible way we are able to.

Grief, in what any form you may see it as has the ability to turn into some form of depression, and the more a person’s body changes, the less control they feel over their lives, but treating this can prolong and accept a much better future for them because there is no way we would want anyone to suffer in any aspect of their life.

There is no doubt we are truly devastated by what you have told us, but we certainly don't want you to suffer from any type of depression that will interfere with any quality you have in life, that's what I was told when all I wanted was to end my life.

I have learnt so much since that time and that's exactly what we want to do for you.

My very best.

Geoff.

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Thu, 08 Apr 2021 02:42:11 GMT

Hello Dear Grandy. Im glad that you are ok. It must be hard feeling your thoughts are not under your ontroll. Oh I reckon it must be frightening. I pray Jesus will help you. Look in the intenet an type Jesus You take over. Please do, the words are comforting and soothing. I say that prayer everyday besides the Rosary. Sounds lovely where you are living, surrounded by nature and animals. Is anyone helping you to look after your darling pets? I simply love and adore animals especially cats. They just fascinate me. I have a black and white 3 years old rescue cat. Her name is Merryweather. I used to live alone when I was well and independent. Now Im totally dependent on my friend and carer for everything, which is horrible. I hate it. I am grateful he is looking after me as Im terrified of nursing home and I want to die in my own home. He is not emotionally supportive at all. I feel he is controlling, so i hve to play it cool. Sometimes I lose it and shout back.Im sorry I really didnt mean to put that on to you, but unfortuntely that is my current situation. I survive be listening to Elvis and watching Jesus movies. My favourite is Jesus of Nazareth. I love listening to his teachings. The movie was made in l977 and Robert Powell played the role of Jesus. He was the best actor and his performance of Jesus was brilliant. I hope Im not boring you. Im just letting you know how I go on. Father David is coming to see me tomorrow to give Holy Communion and spiritual care. We all need some form of comfort and distraction from our troubles. Im very happy to commuicate with you as you sound to be a lovely caring person. You have helped me alot. I hope I can help you too. Un fortunately I cant sit too long in the wheelchair and enjoy the sun as the pain gets rel bad. I will go now and lots of hugs.You will get better. God Bless You. Chunty and Merryweather😋😸🍒

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Fri, 09 Apr 2021 02:04:18 GMT

Hi Sophie, I just want to let you know, that there was a cancellation with the Psychologist and that I have an appointment with her on Monday at 1.40 pm. Also I would like to put a post in Thinking about Death. How do I go abou it?

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Sophie_M — Fri, 09 Apr 2021 02:26:40 GMT

Dear Chunty,

Thank you for the update. It's unfortunate that there was a cancellation but we're glad to hear that you're seeing the psychologist on Monday.

In terms of how you go about it, it depends on what you're saying specifically. If you're meaning suicidal ideation, then please do so in the suicidal thoughts and self-harm section of the forums (https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm).

Alos, feel free to read the following before posting:

https://www.beyondblue.org.au/connect-with-others/online-forums/suicidal-thoughts-and-self-harm/please-read-this-first-posting-in-this-section
http://www.beyondblue.org.au/connect-with-others/community-rules

If you want to talk about thoughts about death in the sense that you're scared of death or something like that, then this might be better suited to the other sections of the forum, such as the 'anxiety' section (https://www.beyondblue.org.au/get-support/online-forums/anxiety).

We hope this helps!

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Sat, 10 Apr 2021 02:44:27 GMT

Hi Everyone, I'm feeling depressed, trapped, helpless and lonely and isolated.This morning in desperation I rang the ambulance to take me away from my carer to a psychiatric hosp. I just lost the plot. I feel mentally and emotionally abused and controlled I cant take any more and exploded. He blames my behaviour on my Borderline Personality.Disorder. Im totally dependent on him because I have a terminal illness. I feel Im to blame for everything. So I feel guilty and an idiot. I am so CONFUSED.

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Sophie_M — Sat, 10 Apr 2021 03:24:55 GMT

Hey Chunty,

It sounds like things are feeling really overwhelming for you right now, and we are really glad that you decided to reach out here for support. Please know that our community are here for you, and we are also getting in touch with you through email to check in with you and offer some extra support through this.

Please know that support is always here for you, whether it is from the friendly counsellors at our Beyond Blue Support Service (1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467). The understanding counsellors are here for you 24/7 as often as you need whenever things are feeling overwhelming, and can provide support and advice to help you through this.

We're all here to help you through this Chunty, you are never alone in this.

Kitty Cat

Ggrand — Sat, 10 Apr 2021 06:49:46 GMT

Hello Dear Chunty,

I want to apologise for not dropping in sooner to reply to you...I am having internet issues here in hospital...

I am pleased you rang the ambulance to take you into care at the hospital...are you still in hospital dear Chunty?...

Is your carer a family member or is he/she from an agency...I ask because if from an agency you can report how the carer is making you feel.....No one deserves to be made to feel emotionally abused nor controlled.....Can you speak to the psychiatrist and social worker..if your not in hospital you can I think..make an appointment with the social worker and have a chat to them about how your being treated and if any other options are available for you...

I love the name of your cat....Merryweather...it’s a beautiful name...I listened to a song on you tube by Elvis Presley..it was never released...it’s call two hands...it’s a very peaceful song about the two hands of God.....I am sure you would love to listen to it.....

I liked Jesus of Nazareth, it is a good movie....I listen to the Abide app at night before my usual sleep stories....Do you listen or use the Abide app?....

Here for you Chunty when I can be....You’re a beautiful person and it’s been a pleasure getting to know you..

God Bless Dear Chunty..My kind thoughts with care.

Grandy..

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Sun, 11 Apr 2021 04:40:40 GMT

Hello Grandy. Im so happy to hear from you. Iwas wondering how you were. Are you feeling any better.Mental health problems are very difficult and complex. Please keep me posted on your progress. You will get better.Jesus will heal you. The paramedics refused to take me away. I just lost the plot and told them everything about my carer. Things are pretty cool now, but the problems need sorting out. He is actually my friend and Ive known him for 40 years. Its just since Ive been sick and dependent on him, his behaviour changed. Im grateful to him, as he has kept me out of nursing homes. We are going to get help.Im seeing the psychologist on Monday and work out some strategys to cope. Im also seeing my social worker for some help and more support. So I hope something good will come out of it. Im ok now, just feeling drained and unwell. Whole body aching, but Im coping. All I can do is pray and think of Jesus. I keep watching Jesus of Nazareth frequently and the sight of Jesus calms me down. You know what I reckon God guided Franco Zefferelli to Robert Powell to portray Jesus. If you read the comments on youtube you will understand what I mean. Robert is very humble "Im only an actor, I do it for a living' In his interviews his comments about playing Jesus are very brief. Caviezel on the other hand rambles on. Merryweather is well. Her main hobby is food. Yes I am with Abide. Its really good. I will go now and I look forward to know how you are going. Take care Dear Grandy and God Bless You Chunty😋🍇🍒

Kitty Cat

Chunty — Sun, 11 Apr 2021 04:43:50 GMT

Hello everybody

Hope you are all ok. Have a lovely day

Chunty🤩