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First post - seeking direction

dustymaree — Tue, 22 Sep 2020 14:58:19 GMT

Hi, I'm having one of those nights where sleeping is impossible and my brain is on some kind of loop.

Ive been feeling an increased need to connect with someone but I'm not comfortable with the idea of seeing a psychologist or counselor in person.
I have a lot that needs unpacking but I don't really know where to begin.

Recently I've been feeling a deep loneliness where it feels like I have absolutely no one who cares about me. I literally do not have one single friend. I'm currently unemployed and I sit at home and study and wait for my mum to come home from work. I might see an old school friend down the street and say hello, i suggest we catch up soon, they say that will be good, and then nothing happens. I can't help but feel rejected and like there is something fundamentally wrong with me. I hate feeling this self pity, but sometimes i cant move through it.

I have been diagnosed with bipolar type 2, although im not entirely sure if this is accurate. I have a history of substance abuse and I have childhood trauma ive never shared with anyone.

I've mostly posted this to release the negative energy it brings me so that hopefully I can sleep but if anyone reads this and can point me in the direction of a particular forum that might be of use to me.. That would be very much appreciated.

I hope you are all well

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tranzcrybe — Tue, 22 Sep 2020 15:57:04 GMT

Hi dustymaree,

Welcome to the bb forums - a good place to find something of interest to solve your restless mind.

I would recommend you use the Search Box (top of page) to punch in some key words and find a relevant post. Alternatively, if you feel up to it, you could start your own thread (Post Thread) on the forums page where you are sure to get plenty of feedback and support.

Regards,

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tranzcrybe — Tue, 22 Sep 2020 16:01:56 GMT

... sorry, Post Thread should read New Thread.

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dustymaree — Wed, 23 Sep 2020 11:17:00 GMT

Thanks t,

I appreciate you taking the time to reply to me.

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tranzcrybe — Wed, 23 Sep 2020 11:27:26 GMT

No worries, dustym.

I hope you found something of benefit.

Loneliness is somewhat of a dichotomy in a world where we are so digitally connected - maybe there is some bizarre correlation? But there are many people who care for you without necessarily uttering a word...

Regards,