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Maya81 — Fri, 24 Apr 2020 10:09:51 GMT

Ive hit a wall, emotional, scared of how I'm feeling. So many years of destruction and pain, where do you start??

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blondguy — Fri, 24 Apr 2020 10:16:52 GMT

Hi Maya81

Welcome to the forums and good on you for having the courage to post too!

If you wish to talk about your wall you are welcome as we can help provide you with better support

Find one situation or set of symptoms to discuss...we are listening and happy to help as much as we can 🙂

Just a note....The forums are a rock solid safe and non judgemental place for you to post Maya81

my kind thoughts

Paul

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Maya81 — Fri, 24 Apr 2020 10:23:01 GMT

Hi Paul, thank you for responding. I honestly don't know where to start, all I can really say is that ive swept it all under the carpet as my life had no time to deal. Ive now hit rock bottom

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blondguy — Fri, 24 Apr 2020 10:29:48 GMT

Hey Maya81

no worries at all...there are no expectations for you to reply or answer a post from me or anyone

Just some background...I have had chronic anxiety for a long time and understand ptsd...It can leave us confused and overwhelmed for sure

There are many gentle people on the forums that can be here for you Maya81

we are here and listening

my kind thoughts

Paul

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mocha delight — Fri, 24 Apr 2020 12:44:01 GMT

Hi maya81 first I want to say welcome and I may not have ptsd but if you ever need to chat I’m here for you ok.

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Dimi_J — Mon, 04 May 2020 16:14:39 GMT

I understand. I have cPTSD. I had just written on a post “I don’t know where to begin”. Reading your words echo that helped me. So thank you for that. Makes me feel a little less strange and alone. So I hope you may feel that too. I’ve been reflecting lately that ptsd is like a hair knot that has got so worn and tangled from so many issues that it’s turned into a solid dreadlock, that feels impossible to detangle and you just don’t know how to begin. 2 years of trauma therapy so far (and no doubt years to come) has shown me that I’ve been able to loosen the big knot at least a little by teasing out one little issue at a time. Like talking through one event, or about one person at a time. Like as if each thing is one chapter in a book. Some day I have to actually write that whole damned book (literally) to get it all on a page so it’s out of my system and I can hope to move on. Right now i (and others) are in the coronavirus chapter and it’s a hell of its own that I never saw coming. I can’t fathom that there could be one more thing - like this- after so many other things I’ve been through. Maybe you feel the same, I don’t know. It makes me fear what will come next. It sure is scary, as you said. I do feel it was a good tip, one of the replies to you, to just start somewhere. Some symptom or situation. For me it’s my mum right now driving me crazy, and not understanding how much I’m hurting. For you it is something else. I hope you can voice it and that it will break the wall. Thank you for your words. It takes courage to write like this, doesn’t it? You found it too.