https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487174#M26503 Well where do I begin? I'm a new first time mum with a husband who constantly works away, to the point he wasn't even here for the birth. I also work full time from home whilst looking after our baby and I literally do everything on my own - I haven't slept more than 2 hours a night in 10 months now. I'm distressed and drowning. Then to top it all off, I've recently found out that while he was away for work while I was giving birth to our child, he was having an affair with a coworker that I believe still would be continuing if I hadn't found out. We live in a state where I have no family or friends and I just don't know where or who to turn to. I feel myself sinking deeper and deeper, the only thing that keeps me going is my child. I just don't even know where to start, my life has completely fallen apart and I just don't have the time or energy to even sort out how I am feeling. Tue, 17 Mar 2020 04:23:27 GMT Positivepeony 2020-03-17T04:23:27Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487174#M26503 Well where do I begin? I'm a new first time mum with a husband who constantly works away, to the point he wasn't even here for the birth. I also work full time from home whilst looking after our baby and I literally do everything on my own - I haven't slept more than 2 hours a night in 10 months now. I'm distressed and drowning. Then to top it all off, I've recently found out that while he was away for work while I was giving birth to our child, he was having an affair with a coworker that I believe still would be continuing if I hadn't found out. We live in a state where I have no family or friends and I just don't know where or who to turn to. I feel myself sinking deeper and deeper, the only thing that keeps me going is my child. I just don't even know where to start, my life has completely fallen apart and I just don't have the time or energy to even sort out how I am feeling. Tue, 17 Mar 2020 04:23:27 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487174#M26503 Positivepeony 2020-03-17T04:23:27Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487175#M26504 <P>Hi Positivepeony,</P> <P>You sound so understandably hurt, lonely, &amp; overwhelmed. I feel for you...you’ve pretty much been raising your newborn all by yourself with minimal support from anyone...I can’t even imagine how stressful, draining &amp; lonely that must be...no one to share the load or cheer you on...</P> <P>I feel saddened your husband wasn’t there to support you during childbirth. I feel that must have been so hard...and his affair to top it off....I’m so, so sorry...</P> <P>Can I ask how have you been holding up since your opening post?</P> <P>I think you’re very brave to share some of your story here...</P> <P>Kindness and care,</P> <P>Pepper</P> <P> </P> Wed, 18 Mar 2020 00:07:35 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487175#M26504 Peppermintbach 2020-03-18T00:07:35Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487176#M26505 <P>my children, no all children, have magical powers i believe</P> <P>Let that help U somehow on that difficult time.</P> Sun, 05 Jul 2020 20:45:54 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/new-here-never-felt-like-this/m-p/487176#M26505 hob2 2020-07-05T20:45:54Z