https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/just-maybe/m-p/448988#M23781 <P>So if been having trouble coping with life, just everything basiclly, for a long while i haven't really left my house showered brush my teeth. Only started doing things since my daughter started going school, I haven't wanted to do anything, I solely live for my daughter and if it wasnt for her I wouldn't stay on planet earth, iv avoided doctors hospitals since I gave birth 6 years ago. I don't have a doctor I go too. And I'm not willing to go to one to get a mental health check, I feel scared and I would have to call reception too book a health apptm which I also feel embarrassed about, I'm just eating away at myself and I'm unsure what I can do to fix it, I have mental health problems bi polar n Bpd I refuse to take medication for, I don't want a placebo effect, I don't want to feel like a mannequin, when I did take medication I traded it abused it drank it will alcohol. Try to take enough to or few time, since then I don't even take panadol. I'm really lost. How can I change this feelinb</P> Sat, 29 Jun 2019 04:03:14 GMT UpsiideDown 2019-06-29T04:03:14Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/just-maybe/m-p/448988#M23781 <P>So if been having trouble coping with life, just everything basiclly, for a long while i haven't really left my house showered brush my teeth. Only started doing things since my daughter started going school, I haven't wanted to do anything, I solely live for my daughter and if it wasnt for her I wouldn't stay on planet earth, iv avoided doctors hospitals since I gave birth 6 years ago. I don't have a doctor I go too. And I'm not willing to go to one to get a mental health check, I feel scared and I would have to call reception too book a health apptm which I also feel embarrassed about, I'm just eating away at myself and I'm unsure what I can do to fix it, I have mental health problems bi polar n Bpd I refuse to take medication for, I don't want a placebo effect, I don't want to feel like a mannequin, when I did take medication I traded it abused it drank it will alcohol. Try to take enough to or few time, since then I don't even take panadol. I'm really lost. How can I change this feelinb</P> Sat, 29 Jun 2019 04:03:14 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/just-maybe/m-p/448988#M23781 UpsiideDown 2019-06-29T04:03:14Z https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/just-maybe/m-p/448989#M23782 <P>UpsiideDown,</P> <P>Welocme to the forum. this place is full of friendly and supportive people.</P> <P>I am glad you wrote your post and shared your story. I understand that you feel embarrassed and scared about about going to a doctor and getting help.</P> <P>Woild you consider ringing the Beyond blue Support line which offers support ad ice action. maybe you could ring and have a chat. 1300 22 4636. You can also chat online if you want. The details are at the top right hand corner of each page. </P> <P>As well as taking your daughter to and from school, you are looking after and providing for her needs and are a loving mother. </P> <P>You are not alone as others reading your post will relate to.</P> <P>I have biploar and children and for many many years refused medication but was able to find medication that stabilised my moods. </P> <P>feel free to post here as much as you like.</P> <P>Quirky </P> <P> </P> Sat, 29 Jun 2019 21:12:07 GMT https://forums.beyondblue.org.au/t5/welcome-and-orientation/just-maybe/m-p/448989#M23782 quirkywords 2019-06-29T21:12:07Z